what a year

today is the last day of 2010. omigoodness, this year was so crazy. i knew that this year would be hard and painful, but never did i think how hard and how painful it would be. man, God broke me into pieces like how someone would break mr. potato head, limb by limb.

i did this last year so i'm going to do the same this year. a reflection of 2010:

-- first sunrise

-- 2nd car accident

-- exams. and learning that the exams are changing in jan 2011. i remember being SO upset, haha. life is funny.

-- found a group of people who i'm so comfortable with.

-- 2 major breakdowns. tons of crying. lots of doubts.

-- dtr. rebound. but praise God, all ended well.

-- gained a lot of good brothers

-- family troubles once again. brings me back to horrible childhood memories.

-- first year being consistent with devotions! :)

-- p90x

-- met my first celebrity, bruno mars!

-- attended my first wedding of a dear sister. hi, mrs. angela hong!

-- learned that i really like yogurt soju, haha

-- being more open-minded/active to new things

-- seeing/hearing the bond among my cousins grow. oh, how i wish i could've partook in the extended family christmas celebration...

-- showed more of my playful side

-- grew to be more confident. more positive.

-- friend washed my feet

-- learned that i have abnormal hands and feet

2011 is the year of the rabbit. and i'm a rabbit. so hopefully, next year will be a better year. or maybe, it will be the year that i am able to handle situations better since the worries i had this year will be continuing onto next year... i hope that in 2011, i'll learn how to fully give God the control. leave everything to Him. trust and have the utmost faith in Him. i also hope that in 2011, i will have a better idea of what i would like to do in terms of a career.

His Son

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger." Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests." -- Luke 2:8-14

Dear God,

Thank you for the birth of Your son, Jesus.

Thank You for giving me life, joy, peace, and hope through Him.

In this time of darkness, I know that there is a light that will shrine through it.

All because of Your son.

Thank you :)

Amen.

deeply in love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IOV1QUR0J9s

Hillsong -- Deeply in Love

In my life You've heard me say

I love you

How do I show You it's true

Hear my heart, it longs for more of You..

I've fallen deeply in love with You..

You have stolen my heart

I'm captivated by You

Never will You and I part

I've fallen deeply in love with You

You and I, together forever

Nothing can stand in the way

My love for You grows stronger

each new day.

I've fallen deeply in love with You

You have stolen my heart

I'm captivated by You

Never will You and I part

I've fallen deeply in love with You

hope

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. -- Luke 11:9-10

If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer. -- Matthew 21:22

she should've listened

before he passed away, he told her daughter to never get married. out of all the sons and daughters he had, he only warned this particular child. maybe he knew something that she didn't know. maybe he knew that she'd suffer for the rest of her life if she got married. whatever he knew, he was right.

if only she had listened to her father. life would've been so much better for her and her own daughter. if only she had listened to her daughter who, at the age of 8, pleaded with her mom to get a divorce. but she didn't listen. and now she's stuck in this miserable life of hers... with a child who has yet to grasp what it means to have an honorable, loving, respectable father.

this same mom told her daughter to never get married and to live freely and peacefully... unlike her mom, this child will listen.

my christmas wish

i was looking forward to coming home for the holidays, especially because i really enjoyed the last time being home which was during thanksgiving break. but as soon as i got into the car, after my dad picked me up from the airport, i was in tears and really wished that i was back in san diego.

God has been striking me down non stop this year in every aspect of my life. but when it comes to family troubles, that's the one that pains me the most and leaves me feeling absolutely hopeless. dang, 2010, you will definitely not be missed.

so this is my christmas wish... i wish that in the future, if i ever do have a family of my own, i hope that it will be a happy family that truly loves, supports, and cares for each another.

i'm not a mom

"excuse me, miss, but is that your daughter over there?"

...... o.O!! what?!

perhaps it was because i was the only asian girl in the store.. but even if i were the only asian girl around, did i look like a mom?! oh my goodness.

family and friends have been nagging me that i should be married already or at least start dating... and lately, i've been having dreams of having a daughter out of wedlock... what is going on?! -.- i still feel really young but maybe i'm not so young at all... =/

do YOU know?

i really love christmas songs. so it stung me a little when someone outrightly said that s/he hated them. HATE. what a strong word... but the person's reasons for hating these songs are pretty legit. but that's what makes me sad... this friend said that christmas songs take away from the true meaning of the holiday -- the birth of Christ. our society has twisted and hallmark-ed this celebration into one that is all about presents, santa, romance, lights, trees, etc. even i had to remind myself what december 25 really stood for. each year, more and more people are forgetting the "christ" in christmas. just recently, some people were protesting the name of this holiday. they wanted to take the "christ" out of the word... basically, "Merry Mas!" would be the new cheer. how utterly dumb.

i hope you, my fellow reader, will not forget the true meaning of christmas.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ZE_a2K2eoQ

Boyz II Men - Do They Know

Do they know

That Jesus was born on this day to save our lives

Do they know

That He carried the signs of the world upon His heart

So that you and I could live

And we'd have an alternative in this life

Do they know

What this day means

Do they know

Where we've been and how it should be

Tell me do they know

Do they know we should love one another

Do they know

The world will be alright only if they know

Do they know

That sharing love to each other is how we all should live

Do they know

That the reason for giving is more than what you give

And to you and your's this day

On a very special holiday

Give your love

And Lord, if they know

Keep them in Your care

Keep them inside Your heart

And help them spread the Word