changes

new location. new apartment. new roommates.

goodbye old friends. hello new friends (i hope)

new job. (possibly) new internship. new perspective.

license on hold; whatsup gmat. be good to me.

i'm scared of a lot of things right now. i'm scared that i'm losing my friends. i'm scared to be living in sd for another year. i'm scared of the new group at church. i'm scared of this new road i'm about to embark on. i'm scared of all these changes going on right now; once again, everything happens all at once.

the most scariest of all?

...doing it all alone.

=)

그 동안 많은 힘들언 일을 견덨지만...

아직도 남아있는 어려움 도 있지만...

언제나 기쁨과 희망 그리고 사랑을 주셔서 고맙습니다.

identity

in our society, our identity is defined in many ways. just to name a few, it can be defined by what we majored in, what we do for a living, what our interests are, and what our personalities are like. we can even further break down these categories into sub-categories and potentially even measure our identity -- what our gpa was in school, how much we earn at our job, what activities we partake in, and which four distinct letters we can attain on the well-known myers-briggs personality test.

but strip away all these things and what are you left with? what is your identity now?

there is only One being who sees us not for our achievements (or even failures) nor for our likes and dislikes, but sees us for who we are, despite these external and earthly factors. and although we sometimes struggle with who we are or what we are to do in life, this same being will never ask such "silly" questions because our identity to Him and our identity in Him will always be constant and consistent. He will forever know us because He made us and He will never forsake us because we are His. this should be our identity.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcBiJAIWJ3U&feature=fvst

Casting Crowns - Who Am I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name

Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star

Would choose to light the way

For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am

But because of what You've done

Not because of what I've done

But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

Vapor in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling

And You've told me who I am

I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin

Would look on me with love and watch me rise again

Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea

Would call out through the rain

And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am

But because of what You've done

Not because of what I've done

But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

Vapor in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling

And You've told me who I am

I am Yours

I am Yours

Whom shall I fear

Whom shall I fear

'Cause I am Yours

I am Yours

question?

in a weird and twisted way, it all makes sense now.

why it's been taking so long..

and why it's still taking so long..

but when, when, when

when will it all come to an end?

5 pillars of manhood

http://jaesonma.com/365-days-of-love-day-284-the-5-pillars-of-manhood-how-men-should-love-respect-women/

i found this blog entry to be an interesting read. it's written by jaeson ma, a well-known pastor in LA who is heavily respected in the asian-american community. i'm not sure if i agree with it word-for-word but i do appreciate how this entry is written by a guy who is speaking out to all the other guys on how to love and respect women while being real men of God. but i do wonder... is there anyone really like this? hmm. shrug.

mr. tortoise

One day, a hare was bragging about how fast he could run. He bragged and bragged and even laughed at the tortoise, who was so slow. The tortoise stretched out his long neck and challenged the hare to a race, which, of course, made the hare laugh.

"My, my, what a joke!" thought the hare.

"A race, indeed, a race. Oh! what fun! My, my! a race, of course, Mr. Tortoise, we shall race!" said the hare.

The forest animals met and mapped out the course. The race begun, and the hare, being such a swift runner, soon left the tortoise far behind. About halfway through the course, it occurred to the hare that he had plenty of time to beat the slow trodden tortoise.

"Oh, my!" though the hare, "I have plenty of time to play in the meadow here."

And so he did.

After the hare finished playing, he decided that he had time to take a little nap.

"I have plenty of time to beat that tortoise," he thought. And he cuddled up against a tree and dozed.

The tortoise, in the meantime, continued to plod on, albeit, it ever so slowly. He never stopped, but took one good step after another.

The hare finally woke from his nap. "Time to get going," he though. And off he went faster than he had ever run before! He dashed as quickly as anyone ever could up to the finish line, where he met the tortoise, who was patiently awaiting his arrival.

the story of the tortoise and the hare plopped into my mind a week ago, and i haven't stopped thinking about it ever since. i really like this story. because. i want to be mr. tortoise. in a way, i guess i am. things are going ever so slowly in my life, and it's been really frustrating. but, i've realized now that even though things are moving along slowly, i know that i'm moving forward. it may not be clearly visible to the human eye, but i think God and i both know that i'm going somewhere. and that eventually, whenever my time may be, i'll get to that finish line. just like mr. tortoise, i'm not going to stop. but i'll just take things one GOOD step after another.