9.26.11

i forgot to write this entry yesterday so the title of this entry and the actual date of this entry are conflicting.. poop.

anyway, one of my close sisters and i plan to read the bible chronologically in one year. we're going to try our best to accomplish this goal and to keep each other accountable. i'm so excited to start this journey with her :)

that kid

he's a kid from my childhood.
we were never really friends,
we never really talked,
in fact, i wasn't quite fond of him.
i didn't even want to be associated with him.
he was kind of a jerk.

sometime in our middle school years,
attending different schools now,
we had our first conversation.
it happened to be on the phone.
how in the world did that even happen?
i don't remember.
anyway, we still weren't friends
but he called.. to ask me to come to his church on friday night.
he bribed me, said he'd give me something if i came.
so i went on a friday night. it was praise night.
i saw him. he came up to me. we said hi.
and that was it.
he called that very night.
i asked him, "where was my gift?"
he said he didn't have it because he didn't think i would really come...
i got jipped.

that was our last time we spoke with each other.
more than 10 years ago.
i forgot all about him.
but last year, he popped up in my mind.
why?? i have no clue.
tried to find him on facebook.
he doesn't have one but his cousin does.
(i'm fb friends with his cousin, except she doesn't really remember me, haha)
i tried to see if there were any pictures of him.
it was like he didn't exist anymore.
it troubled me a lot. i got worried, too
because i had a feeling that he'd hang with the "bad" crowd...
that he, himself, would turn away from God...
because you see, he was "that kind of boy."

a few months ago, my mom called.
she ran into his mom
who only talked about her daughter and not her son
my mom felt like his mom was hiding something
she didn't seem to want to talk about her own son
when i heard this, i began to worry even more.

but today, i came across his picture on his cousin's fb.
he's not laughing, not really smiling,
who knows what he's been up to...
kinda looks like the azn wanksta that i had pictured him to be, haha
anyway, i am so relieved
to see him alive.

the job that got away

i applied for an internship position at a fortune 500 company and my interview was today. when i drove near the company, i was amazed by the buildings and the parking lot that was full of cars owned by the 10,00 employees that work there... man, i was in awe.

the job was an accounting intern position and it encompassed the majority of what i wanted to do. there's no doubt that i could've learned so much from it; it was a pretty sick job, i tell you. not only would i have had my own cubicle but i would've had my own 2 desktops, a laptop, and a cellphone. andd it wasn't a job where i'd just sit at the desk all day but it was also a job called to go out and talk with different managers and such. okay, the last part of the job scared me a little bit but i was eager to take on the challenge.

i pretty much nailed the interview. it was the longest and BEST interviews ever and it wasn't because of what i had said/done but because the person who interviewed me was such a nice middle-aged man. he made me feel so comfortable that my nerves went away in an instant. he would've been the person i worked with closely, but eventually becoming independent and doing things on my own. i really wanted to work with and for him... the more we talked about the position, the more i wanted it SO BADLY.

after a couple of hrs since the interview, i got a call from the company's recruiter. he asked me one simple question and i knew that i wasn't qualified for the intern position: "are you a full-time student?"

i was so devastated... the recruiter had told me that i was chosen for the job but since the company's policy requires interns to be a full-time student, there was no way that i could be the intern. the person who interviewed me called a few minutes later, too, and he told me that he "fought" for me and tried to find loopholes in the policy... i was deeply touched.

i know that all things happen for a reason and all things happen under God's will. but i can't help feeling devastated by this... it would've been a wonderful opportunity to have worked there, and there was a good chance that the intern position would've developed into a full-time position... and the company treats/pays their interns exceptionally well... and boy, the experience of working there would have ultimately been THE MOST gratifying experience ever... man, this sucks...

[[edit 10:01pm]] wow, my friend just told me that today, he heard back from this job he interviewed for. he and i both thought he had gotten the job.. but he didn't. and then he reminded me one thing, "in the end, God is good." thanks, buddy :)

why, hello

hi there, blog.
i haven't written to you in awhile..
i hope you've been well.
as for me?
well... much has happened.
one of the best summers has gone.
playtime is over.
time to focus again!
praying for diligence and discernment and growth.

i'd really love to sit on this bench... :)