a look back on 2011

i can't believe it's almost 2012 already. seriously, where did the time go?? this year, especially, seemed to have zoomed by within a blink of an eye. zoom!

what happened in 2011...

-- first baseball & basketball game

-- glee concert

-- fun san diego outings thanks to sammy

-- trip to CT/Boston/Washington DC

-- cousin daniel's wedding --> seeing his family for the first time since 8 or 9 years.

-- lunch with cousin moses & josh--> also been a couple of years since i last saw them

-- christmas eve with mom's side of the family (minus parents)--> cousin annie's engagement news!

-- harry potter marathon with cousin maria, aretha, john :) 19hrs 40mins.

-- mom's hatred of white hairs

-- first half of 2011 = depression; questioning life

-- volunteer for VITA & irvine internship for cpa office

-- no more cpa exams. yes to gmat and grad school

-- part-time accounting assistant

-- mama bear samoneem and cubbie sister esther

-- pepper spray

-- bible reading with katrina (to be completed in a year)

-- more constant struggles with the christian identity

-- thanksgiving with angela's beautiful family

-- unpleasant douche

-- fear of commitment

-- made a vow: no "bad" namjs.

-- deaths of osama bin laden & kim jong il

-- bye to la jolla. hello to mira mesa.

-- seeing more of the sinner in me

overall, 2011 was a decent year. it was very tough in the first half, but towards the later 6 months, things began to turn around. i think one of the more desirous resolutions for 2012 is for diligence in everything: studies, work, grad apps, DT, and relationships. i also really want to fear my sins and really struggle with them and not simply overlook them. i want to learn how to be patient and loving and genuinely kind. i want to keep my vow and run away from douches. i want to be more confident and unwavering in my identity. 2012 will be a busy year and i hope i'll remain focused.

merry Christmas!

last year's winter holidays was a crazy, teary mess. but for this year, i eagerly awaited to come home and be joyful during this time of year. and i'm really happy to say that so far, it's been great! i'm glad i got to see my mom's side of the family and celebrate Christmas eve with them. it's been over a year since i've seen all my cousins and this may be the last year that we can celebrate Christmas altogether. i'm really glad i got to partake in the family gathering this year.

thankYou, Jesus.

oppa

the same oppa who washed my feet with soap last year... sent me an early christmas gift. he got me pepper spray because he knows that i work late at night, all by myself in the lonely office... i've always wanted an older brother and so, i'm really lucky to have this brother in my life. thankyou, oppa.. :')

show them grace

"why do you keep expecting them to do the right thing?"

"...."

why DO i expect them to do the right thing?

is it because they're christians?

i consider myself to be a pessimist but when it comes to people, i find myself trying to find the good in them. why do i do that? why do i set myself up for disappointment?

i shouldn't expect anything. i shouldn't have hopes for anyone.

let God do His thing with His children.

as for me, i need to learn how to imitate God's love and His grace.

happy december!

whee whee whee!!! i've been waiting for this month for soo long... not because i'm in a christmas spirit (hardly), but because i get to go home soon and see my family and friends who i've missed verry much!! ahh, i can't wait!! i've been counting down the weeks since november! 3 more weeks!! ahh!! normally, i'd say that time flies by very quickly but lately, i've been feeling like time is going by so slowlyyy... mister Time, please let me see my family and friends soon!! :D

...oh my... 2011 is almost over!!

woah. o.O