i look like a what?!

someone said i look like a kangaroo.

...what the random. i'm not sure if i simply remind that person of a kangaroo or if i really look like one. i guess i do jump up and down a lot.. but that's only when i'm happy or excited!

...perhaps i should stop jumping up and down. but what can i say? i'm free-spirited! haha :P

i didn't remember how a kangaroo looked like so i googled it and came across this picture:
hrm.. interesting. well, anyway, what animal do YOU look like? :)

**update: someone else told me i look like a pony. random.

sigh

sigh. how can a person whom you've had many great chats with and fun hangouts with just.. throw it all away? how can that person just.. no longer want to be a friend? no longer want to care for you as a person? no longer be comfortable to talk to you? it's so hard for me at times because that person and i have mutual friends. when these mutual friends talk about this person, i always have to put on a fake smile and pretend that we have a good relationship. and i always have to think of something nice to say about that person, when in reality, i'm hurting inside.

sigh. i'm selfish. i'm used to getting things my own way, in terms of friendships. if i want to be friends with someone, we usually become friends. but with this person, it's not possible. i'm trying to learn how to accept it but it's soo frustrating. maybe if we didn't have any mutual friends then it'd be easier for me to not care about this person. and honestly, we don't even need to be good friends. just, someone who will be comfortable around me rather than dump me as if i hadn't existed to begin with. dangit. if i had done something to harm this person, then i can accept this person throwing me away. but that's not even the case! nothing bad happened at all! :(

sigh. this person did no wrong at all. everyone's views on friendship is different and i know that i should respect that person's beliefs. i need to move on and perhaps try my best to erase the memory of this so-called friendship. i know that with time i won't be hurting anymore. but gosh. i hate knowing that someone out there is uncomfortable with me. well, i guess it's better being uncomfortable rather than being hated on.

... i care too much. i care too much about people and the little things like memories. that's really bad. if you care too much, you can get hurt easily. damnit. i should learn from the korean girl group, 2ne1, and sing their song, "i don't care." haha just kidding. sort of.

so proud

one of the happiest moments in my life is when the kids i tutor excitedly tell me that they did really well on their tests. i guess this is how parents feel when they watch their kids get good grades, or perform in the school play, or play in a sports game, and the list goes on.

today at tutoring, my 8th grade girl showed me her math quiz and test that she passed with flying colors. she's the top student in her math class right now, and i am so proud of her. according to her mom, she hasn't been doing too well in math for the previous years. but starting this new school year, i've seen her improve so much. and i'm so happy for her. after my session with the girl, her 6th grade brother walked in the room. he and i work on math and english, but i have him study more english than math. anyway, he proudly said that he got a 100% on his weekly vocabulary test, and i've noticed that these weeks, he's always been getting a perfect score on his tests. i'm so proud of him as well. here is cheyenne and vincent:
and finally, my 6 year old kid is reading with more confidence and fluency. she can pronounce hard words such as "rouge." i don't even know what that means! when i was 6, i was reading words like, "the cat in the hat" or something. haha, oh dear. this is ellen with her 2 yr old brother, brian:

i'm so proud of these kids. and i'm so glad that i can be of some help to them rather than steal money from their parents. hehe, just kidding! i like my kids very much :)

**on a side note, i just looked up "rouge" on dictionary.com. it means, "any of various red cosmetics for coloring the cheeks or lips." hahaha ok, whatever :P