every time i come home for break, i get a bit nervous because i know my mom will ask about boys and dating. some of the things she says are pretty funny and ridiculous. but now, she's taken it to another level...
last night, i came home for thanksgiving break. when i came inside the house, my mom looked me up and down, and examined my face.
"what is up with your hair? and why don't you wear makeup? you're not a child anymore.. can you please, like, dress up? you can't attract guys like this..."
i was wearing a black jacket with blue jeans. and my hair was down but a bit messy because i had just gotten off the plane. why in the world would i want to dress up for an airplane ride??
after she criticized the way i looked and after adding more harsh comments, she asked, "you like girls, huh? are you a lesbian?"
ok. now i'm going to vent. WHAT THE HECK. is my goal in this world to get a guy?! am i suppose to be a girl who centers her life around boys?! and dating?! my mom is sooo....UGHHHH...... i'm sorry that i ain't boy-crazy, nor am i a super girly girl who cares for only makeup and fashion and all that superficial things (it also helps that i don't have money).
sigh... i do care about the way i look (who doesn't?) and yea, there are many things i'd like to shop for...but, really? is it really necessary to dress up in order to attract guys? is that my purpose in life? really?? that's sooo stupid! why do i need to revolve myself around boys, especially when they're mostly jerks? (i'm going through a i-hate-boys phase right now so forgive me if i offend anyone)
my goal in life is to live for God. my life is centered around Him and Him alone. not boys, not dating, not makeup and all the other worldly things. my main focus is God and what i can accomplish in this world before i die. i want to make the world a better place. i don't know how i'll do that through accounting but, i really hope that i can leave an impact on someone or something before i depart from this earth. THAT'S my goal. my passion. my purpose.
i wish i can make my mom understand that i really, strongly don't care about boys, and that i'm content with who i am. sigh. if only she and my dad could live their lives for God. then maybe she could grasp a little of how i feel and where i'm coming from.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
kimchi jjigae
i made my first kimchi jjigae, hehe :) i rarely cook so this is kind of a big deal for me, even though it's really not a big deal at all.
cooking ain't easy. i don't know how my mom does it everyday after coming home late from work. there were countless times when i'd complain to her about the food. like, i want this but not this. or, i don't like this but i like this. my dad didn't make it easier on her, either, being the picky man that he is. man, it really makes me appreciate my mom a lot, a lot. if i can be at least half the woman she is, i'd be so grateful. but dang, i don't think i can be a mom...or a wife. it seems so hard! haha :P
anyways, here are pictures of my kimchi jjigae that i made for my dear christine. i used kimchi, pork, onions, gochujang (red pepper paste), and tofu:
next item on my list: doenjang jjigae! :)
cooking ain't easy. i don't know how my mom does it everyday after coming home late from work. there were countless times when i'd complain to her about the food. like, i want this but not this. or, i don't like this but i like this. my dad didn't make it easier on her, either, being the picky man that he is. man, it really makes me appreciate my mom a lot, a lot. if i can be at least half the woman she is, i'd be so grateful. but dang, i don't think i can be a mom...or a wife. it seems so hard! haha :P
anyways, here are pictures of my kimchi jjigae that i made for my dear christine. i used kimchi, pork, onions, gochujang (red pepper paste), and tofu:
next item on my list: doenjang jjigae! :)
Sunday, November 15, 2009
yiruma
i'm really liking yiruma these days. he's a famous korean pianist who produces very elegant and beautiful music. it's so pretty and i can't get enough of it. it's so peaceful to listen to and it sounds a bit romantic. that's probably why some of his compositions have been featured in korean dramas, hehe. i really like his music.
when i was in high school, my dream was to be a music producer who created music much similar to yiruma's. i even considered applying to music schools, but the mother wanted me to attend a u.c like all asian parents. but, i don't blame her one bit. i would've never been able to produce such great music like yiruma's or hans zimmer, the talented composer who produced songs for more than 100 films including "pirates of the caribbean," "lion king," "the dark knight," "gladiator," etc, etc. ah, i miss playing the piano so much. i can't wait to go home this thanksgiving break and befriend my piano once again :)
yiruma's "river flows in you" is one of my favorites. check it out! it's currently my ringtone ♥ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1p_ebSseEq8
(special thanks to my dear wifey, christine jung, for introducing me to yiruma)
when i was in high school, my dream was to be a music producer who created music much similar to yiruma's. i even considered applying to music schools, but the mother wanted me to attend a u.c like all asian parents. but, i don't blame her one bit. i would've never been able to produce such great music like yiruma's or hans zimmer, the talented composer who produced songs for more than 100 films including "pirates of the caribbean," "lion king," "the dark knight," "gladiator," etc, etc. ah, i miss playing the piano so much. i can't wait to go home this thanksgiving break and befriend my piano once again :)
yiruma's "river flows in you" is one of my favorites. check it out! it's currently my ringtone ♥ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1p_ebSseEq8
(special thanks to my dear wifey, christine jung, for introducing me to yiruma)
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