family

family. one of the more sensitive topics that'll make me cry very easily.

it painfully hurts me to hear about violence within the family, abusive and irresponsible parent(s), drama with relatives...

sometimes, being blood-related really doesn't matter at all. sometimes, your friends are more of a family than your real family. how can this be?

not all families are perfect. mine especially. but no kid should grow up in a hostile environment where they fear their own home.

i hope that my friends will be blessed with a happy marriage and a loving family. of course, there will be tough times and there will be arguments here and there, but in general, i hope everyone will have an unconditional love for their future spouse and their family.

teeny bopper

i've been listening to a lot of pop music these days, hehe. i feel like a teeny bopper listening to these cheesy songs by my favorite boybands, backstreet boys/*n sync/98 degrees, etc. hehehe mmm~ ^_^

currently, my itunes is playing "God must have spent a little more time on you" by *n sync :) i can't stop smiling, haha. it makes me really giddy :)

but one of my favorite boyband songs is by backstreet boys -- "how did i fall in love you." mmm~ so good~ :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aGTVl-hG3X8&feature=related

is God on vacation?

stupid question, huh?

i know that God is omnipresent and He's probably watching me write this entry. but... lately, i've been feeling like God isn't here right now and He's far, far away. maybe He's on vacation. i've never felt this way before where it is God on vacation as opposed to me being on vacation from Him. i don't know how to make sense of it. i'm not spiritually down or anything, but perhaps i'm mistaking this feeling for another one? like, hmm... maybe i'm not feeling the Holy Spirit within me. He kind of just... mysteriously vanished. and i feel nothing. no sadness, no anger. simply confused. where did He go, i wonder.

i'm still doing my devotionals. but the bible is feeling more and more like a book. an ordinary book. not as God's Word, not as His instrument that He can speak to us through. but just a plain old book. hrm... i'm so confused.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. -- Psalm 51:12