my christmas wish

i was looking forward to coming home for the holidays, especially because i really enjoyed the last time being home which was during thanksgiving break. but as soon as i got into the car, after my dad picked me up from the airport, i was in tears and really wished that i was back in san diego.

God has been striking me down non stop this year in every aspect of my life. but when it comes to family troubles, that's the one that pains me the most and leaves me feeling absolutely hopeless. dang, 2010, you will definitely not be missed.

so this is my christmas wish... i wish that in the future, if i ever do have a family of my own, i hope that it will be a happy family that truly loves, supports, and cares for each another.

i'm not a mom

"excuse me, miss, but is that your daughter over there?"

...... o.O!! what?!

perhaps it was because i was the only asian girl in the store.. but even if i were the only asian girl around, did i look like a mom?! oh my goodness.

family and friends have been nagging me that i should be married already or at least start dating... and lately, i've been having dreams of having a daughter out of wedlock... what is going on?! -.- i still feel really young but maybe i'm not so young at all... =/

do YOU know?

i really love christmas songs. so it stung me a little when someone outrightly said that s/he hated them. HATE. what a strong word... but the person's reasons for hating these songs are pretty legit. but that's what makes me sad... this friend said that christmas songs take away from the true meaning of the holiday -- the birth of Christ. our society has twisted and hallmark-ed this celebration into one that is all about presents, santa, romance, lights, trees, etc. even i had to remind myself what december 25 really stood for. each year, more and more people are forgetting the "christ" in christmas. just recently, some people were protesting the name of this holiday. they wanted to take the "christ" out of the word... basically, "Merry Mas!" would be the new cheer. how utterly dumb.

i hope you, my fellow reader, will not forget the true meaning of christmas.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ZE_a2K2eoQ

Boyz II Men - Do They Know

Do they know

That Jesus was born on this day to save our lives

Do they know

That He carried the signs of the world upon His heart

So that you and I could live

And we'd have an alternative in this life

Do they know

What this day means

Do they know

Where we've been and how it should be

Tell me do they know

Do they know we should love one another

Do they know

The world will be alright only if they know

Do they know

That sharing love to each other is how we all should live

Do they know

That the reason for giving is more than what you give

And to you and your's this day

On a very special holiday

Give your love

And Lord, if they know

Keep them in Your care

Keep them inside Your heart

And help them spread the Word