Tuesday, September 20, 2011

the job that got away

i applied for an internship position at a fortune 500 company and my interview was today. when i drove near the company, i was amazed by the buildings and the parking lot that was full of cars owned by the 10,00 employees that work there... man, i was in awe.

the job was an accounting intern position and it encompassed the majority of what i wanted to do. there's no doubt that i could've learned so much from it; it was a pretty sick job, i tell you. not only would i have had my own cubicle but i would've had my own 2 desktops, a laptop, and a cellphone. andd it wasn't a job where i'd just sit at the desk all day but it was also a job called to go out and talk with different managers and such. okay, the last part of the job scared me a little bit but i was eager to take on the challenge.

i pretty much nailed the interview. it was the longest and BEST interviews ever and it wasn't because of what i had said/done but because the person who interviewed me was such a nice middle-aged man. he made me feel so comfortable that my nerves went away in an instant. he would've been the person i worked with closely, but eventually becoming independent and doing things on my own. i really wanted to work with and for him... the more we talked about the position, the more i wanted it SO BADLY.

after a couple of hrs since the interview, i got a call from the company's recruiter. he asked me one simple question and i knew that i wasn't qualified for the intern position: "are you a full-time student?"

i was so devastated... the recruiter had told me that i was chosen for the job but since the company's policy requires interns to be a full-time student, there was no way that i could be the intern. the person who interviewed me called a few minutes later, too, and he told me that he "fought" for me and tried to find loopholes in the policy... i was deeply touched.

i know that all things happen for a reason and all things happen under God's will. but i can't help feeling devastated by this... it would've been a wonderful opportunity to have worked there, and there was a good chance that the intern position would've developed into a full-time position... and the company treats/pays their interns exceptionally well... and boy, the experience of working there would have ultimately been THE MOST gratifying experience ever... man, this sucks...

[[edit 10:01pm]] wow, my friend just told me that today, he heard back from this job he interviewed for. he and i both thought he had gotten the job.. but he didn't. and then he reminded me one thing, "in the end, God is good." thanks, buddy :)

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

why, hello

hi there, blog.
i haven't written to you in awhile..
i hope you've been well.
as for me?
well... much has happened.
one of the best summers has gone.
playtime is over.
time to focus again!
praying for diligence and discernment and growth.

i'd really love to sit on this bench... :)

Sunday, August 21, 2011

proverbs 2:7-11

if our love for God is really love..
and if we genuinely fear God as we are called to...
then.. shouldn't we try that much harder to fight against sin?
but.. we don't try.. we just accept it.. because somehow.. we've let the world become the judge..
whatever the world does.. we do..
because the world says it's ok..
but it's not..
all of this.. it hurts..

He holds success in store for the upright,
He is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
for He guards the course of the just
and protects the way of His faithful ones.

Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair -- every good path.
For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.
-- Proverbs 2:7-11