pure

adj. free from tainting or polluting matter; clean; wholesome; free from moral taint or defilement

synonyms: unmixed, unadulterated, unalloyed, uncontaminated, untainted, unstained, undefiled, untarnished, immaculate, unpolluted, uncorrupted

breathe

i had a verrry niiceee 2.5 weeks at home for the holidays. now, i'm back in sd which means back to reality! i wrote a loonggg list of things to do for the first half of 2012 and ohhmyyy, i'm already so overwhelmed. i'm having little panic attacks...

breatheeee....

one day at a time....

trust.in.Him.

yes? no?

me: "what is your new year's resolution?"

friend: "to be honest with myself"

i really like this. ever since the day i heard my friend's reply, i've been thinking on it a lot. how often are you honest with yourself.. how often are you true to yourself..

"... i don't think you know what you want... a lot of us don't know what we want.."

i've been hearing this a lot, too. and i think there's a lot of truth to it. more and more i'm beginning to see that i really DON'T know what i want. my imperceptible goals seem to be beyond reach and blurry. who i am but who i want to be are in paradox, leading to denial and occasional identity crises. who i acquaint myself with but the person(s) i want to be involved with are often contradictory. i am just a walking oxymoron.