thank You

i'm truly thankful for everyone and everything in my life. from the basic needs such as a home, food, clothes, and clean water. to the special people like family, friends, and my good ole' heavenly Father. and for this particular entry, i'd like to give a shout out to those whom i love so dearly.

God: i am always forever thankful for Him and my salvation. it's because of Him that i'm capable of accepting me for who i am. that i can take delight in my hardships and struggles. that i know that everything will be all right. these past couple of months, my relationship with my Father has been stronger than ever. it's been completely amazing and i pray that my faith in Him will remain strong and continue to grow.

family: dad lost his job a few months ago and mom recently got into a car accident. i must admit, this was kind of hard for me to be thankful for. but God always prevails. now that my dad is at home, he helps my mom a lot around the house. this was a man who never, ever did any household chores but rather idly sat on the couch with his eyes glued to the tv. but now he's a hardworking house-husband who knows how to make a good kimchi jjigae. haha, wow. i'm really happy and thankful that he's finally helping and appreciating my mom for all that she does. and as for my mom.. this car accident has shaken her up a bit. but, she's ok and i'm just glad it wasn't a fatal accident. and amidst all the complaints i made about her in the previous entry, i know that she just cares about me a lot. love hurts sometimes, haha :)

friends: the old and the new friends. the honest and genuine friendships. a few weeks ago, i was hurt by someone who i thought was a friend. i was pretty much wallowing in my sorrow but thankfully, i realized how ridiculous i was being. i had temporarily forgotten about the real friends that i do have and how important these brothers and sisters are in my life. i'm so, so tremendously thankful for my friends who have accepted this random and quirky girl who asks one too many questions :P

and one more thing i'm thankful for...

my blog: i'm thankful for this blog in which i can freely write about anything. but i want to give thanks to you, the reader. this might sound strange but as you read this blog, i kind of believe that you're letting a little bit of me be a part of your life. and for that, i'm very thankful :)

i hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving this year, 2009. let's not be thankful on just this one day but be thankful all year round :) happy thanksgiving!

you drive me crazy

every time i come home for break, i get a bit nervous because i know my mom will ask about boys and dating. some of the things she says are pretty funny and ridiculous. but now, she's taken it to another level...

last night, i came home for thanksgiving break. when i came inside the house, my mom looked me up and down, and examined my face.

"what is up with your hair? and why don't you wear makeup? you're not a child anymore.. can you please, like, dress up? you can't attract guys like this..."

i was wearing a black jacket with blue jeans. and my hair was down but a bit messy because i had just gotten off the plane. why in the world would i want to dress up for an airplane ride??

after she criticized the way i looked and after adding more harsh comments, she asked, "you like girls, huh? are you a lesbian?"

ok. now i'm going to vent. WHAT THE HECK. is my goal in this world to get a guy?! am i suppose to be a girl who centers her life around boys?! and dating?! my mom is sooo....UGHHHH...... i'm sorry that i ain't boy-crazy, nor am i a super girly girl who cares for only makeup and fashion and all that superficial things (it also helps that i don't have money).

sigh... i do care about the way i look (who doesn't?) and yea, there are many things i'd like to shop for...but, really? is it really necessary to dress up in order to attract guys? is that my purpose in life? really?? that's sooo stupid! why do i need to revolve myself around boys, especially when they're mostly jerks? (i'm going through a i-hate-boys phase right now so forgive me if i offend anyone)

my goal in life is to live for God. my life is centered around Him and Him alone. not boys, not dating, not makeup and all the other worldly things. my main focus is God and what i can accomplish in this world before i die. i want to make the world a better place. i don't know how i'll do that through accounting but, i really hope that i can leave an impact on someone or something before i depart from this earth. THAT'S my goal. my passion. my purpose.

i wish i can make my mom understand that i really, strongly don't care about boys, and that i'm content with who i am. sigh. if only she and my dad could live their lives for God. then maybe she could grasp a little of how i feel and where i'm coming from.

kimchi jjigae

i made my first kimchi jjigae, hehe :) i rarely cook so this is kind of a big deal for me, even though it's really not a big deal at all.

cooking ain't easy. i don't know how my mom does it everyday after coming home late from work. there were countless times when i'd complain to her about the food. like, i want this but not this. or, i don't like this but i like this. my dad didn't make it easier on her, either, being the picky man that he is. man, it really makes me appreciate my mom a lot, a lot. if i can be at least half the woman she is, i'd be so grateful. but dang, i don't think i can be a mom...or a wife. it seems so hard! haha :P

anyways, here are pictures of my kimchi jjigae that i made for my dear christine. i used kimchi, pork, onions, gochujang (red pepper paste), and tofu:



next item on my list: doenjang jjigae! :)