struggling

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. -- Ephesians 4:22-24

after accepting Christ back in '05, i saw myself change from a very angry and pessimistic girl to a more merry and confident woman. but one thing that hasn't changed are my sins. i thought that after being saved, i would be better at not sinning. quite the contrary, however. i struggled with my sins every day, and i still do. no matter how hard i try "to put on the new self" and to live my life for God, i still can't seem to escape from my depravity. how did Jesus do it? during His time on earth, He never ever sinned. even when satan tempted Him multiple times, He never caved. i wonder if, during that time, He ever struggled internally. i'm thinking that He didn't because He's Jesus. 100% God. but then again, He was also 100% Man. hmm... anyway.

thank You, Father, for Your grace and Your mercy to accept this lowly child who is in a constant battle with her sins.

a prayer from Paul

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge -- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

-- Ephesians 3:14-19

language barrier

it's hard to have a serious conversation with someone when there's a language barrier. i wish i was more fluent in korean. or if the other could be more fluent in english. i wish, i wish... but at least i tried. my first baby step. taha. i kind of want to find a korean conversationalist. my korean is quite poor :( darn.

on a side note, i really like this song by a guy named J.R.A. the lyrics are cute and the acoustic is lighthearted. check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=saLxLiLChH8&feature=related