goodbye '09. hello '10

reflecting back on 2009, here are some things that i can remember off the top of my head:

-- my first car accident

-- graduated college!

-- learned how to laugh a lot, a lot.

-- enjoyed my alone times at tea 'n more while drinking black tea and journaling and thinking. sounds a bit emo, huh? haha well, it's not!! :P

-- first time falling in love with God. since then, my walk with Him has been so freakin' awesome :)

-- the end of serving as a dt leader. this actually makes me really, really sad.

-- my mom slightly thought i was gay. i reassured her that i'm not.

-- post-college "depression"

-- decided on becoming a CPA

-- first time taking delight in my trials and tribulations because i know God presents these struggles to help us grow and strengthen our faith in Him.

-- first time helping my aunts with thanksgiving and christmas dinner. that's probably the best thing about the 2 holidays this year. oh, and family bonding was quite special this year ♥

-- many, many oprah moments with people i never expected to share deep conversations with, and about taboo topics that i never expected to discuss

-- making new friends, strengthening friendships, losing friends

-- my first 5hr43min phone call

-- learned more about myself: i ask a lot of questions, i squeal when i'm excited and my voice becomes higher and higher, and i make funny/weird noises when i'm struggling with what i want to say and during random/silent moments while talking to a friend.

-- i'm in a relationship. on facebook. with a girl. and i'm the husband. hahaha no wonder my mom slightly thought i was gay!! ahaha just kidding!

i can probably go on and on with my list... but i won't. the main thing i've learned this year is that i'm young. i'm not saying that i'm young just because of my age, but the way i think is very childlike. the final months of 2009 have shown me how my views on certain matters have been seen through the eyes of a child. i really thought that i was pretty mature and ready to face the real world. but God greatly humbled me and pretty much slapped my face. my childlike attitude on friendships and relationships have been greatly altered and during the last days of this year, i'm learning how i need to grow up. or, well, God has presented challenges in my life to make me grow up. it's been hard, but i know that i can't pretend to be a little girl anymore. but man, truth hurts, and reality is quite scary. but the scariest thing of all is that the older i become, i'll be facing more of the real world and there won't be anyone to shelter me from it. i guess this is what it means to be putting my 100% trust in God.

i predict that 2010 for me will be stressful and painful. i'm kind of excited to start my cpa studies since i'll finally be taking my first leap into my future career. however, i'm going to get OWNED. therefore, i must study, study, study!!!~ eeek. anyways.

happy new year!! i hope your 2010 will be full of many blessings and happy moments!! :)

merry christmas!

this year, it didn't hit me that christmas was near. and it still hasn't hit me that christmas has come. i tried listening to christmas music in hopes of joining everyone in the holiday spirit and the jolly festivities... but, i don't know. i don't feel anything. it's like, something is really off. but, i realize now that the most important thing about christmas is not about the warm and cheery feeling that i'd normally get during this season. it's about recognizing a very special birthday for a very special person :) so, with that said... merry christmas!!

This is how the birth of Jesus Christ came about: His mother Mary was pledged to be married to Joseph, but before they came together, she was found to be with child through the Holy Spirit. Because Joseph her husband was a righteous man and did not want to expose her to public disgrace, he had in mind to divorce her quietly. But after he had considered this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, "Joseph son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary home as your wife, because what is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit. She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins." All this took place to fulfill what the Lord had said through the prophet: "The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel"-- which means, "God with us." When Joseph woke up, he did what the angel of the Lord had commanded him and took Mary home as his wife. But he had no union with her until she gave birth to a son. And he gave him the name Jesus. -- Matthew 1:18-25

what makes a good friend?

stacy: how's home?
me: mm, it's ok. it's good. i dunno, i'm just trying to enjoy these last days of break until i start studying.. but i'm already stressing over it.
stacy: for the accounting exam?
me: yes, for accounting
stacy: when are you gonna start really hardcore studying?
me: jan. 5. shoot me now
stacy: oh dang. yes good luck. ahaha. if i had a gun, then i'd be a good friend and do it.

my new definition of a good friend: someone who will shoot you when you ask them to. hahaha. sweet.

a negative skew

it's been hard. these days. or weeks. actually, this month.

i'm slipping away. from the one person who is always trustworthy. but my many misgivings are blinding me from wanting to spend time with Him. when i really should be turning to Him during this time of hate. all this mistrust that i have... it's been horrible. my views on the opposite sex are skewed. so skewed. skewed in the negative direction. it's bad. real bad.

i hate the fact that my thoughts are so skewed. and i hate the feeling of hate (haha). i sincerely feel like i'm being brainwashed. that i need to stay away from the whole male species. but i know that girls are as untrustworthy as guys, too, and i know that we're all sinners. but despite all this, i have little to no respect for guys (with the exception of friends). oh, man. i'm such a jerk.

hmm. all this talk about being skewed reminds me of my highschool stats class. do you remember the normal distribution with the mean at the center and all is balanced? it looks like this:but i've become a negatively skewed distribution. hate>love:

as time goes by, i pray that i'll become a positively skewed distribution. love>hate:

... i just compared my emotions to a mathematical principle. what a nerd.

pray

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. -- Romans 12:12

Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. -- Colossians 4:2
But you, dear friends, build yourselves up in your most holy faith and pray in the Holy Spirit. -- Jude 1:20

the gas station

there's a gas station i regularly go to and unlike most people, i like to pay in cash rather than with a card. but at the same time, i'm shy with strangers, so when i pay for something, i try to avoid eye contact. i wouldn't say i'm socially awkward but i do tend to get a teensy bit nervous around non-asians. especially non-asian men.

last night, i went to the gas station. i decided that this time, i'll walk up to the cashier, muster up my courage, hand him my money with my head help up high, and make eye contact. i had my own cheerleader cheering me on, You can do this! You can overcome your public speaking with strangers! Hwaiting! i boldly stepped inside the store, and the same black man who always works there was working there.

me: with a friendly voice and my head held up high, i hand him a $40 and said, "$30 on 8."
man: he looks at me, surprised to see that my head is no longer looking down at the floor (i'm sure he remembers this little asian girl who always mumbled to him and looked away from him.) "$30..on..8? 8, you said?"
me: "yea, 8." i smile.
man: he is now staring at me. (i start to become nervous again and wonder if my sudden confidence will crumble away in a few milliseconds. but no, my personal cheerleader tells myself, Hang in there! You're doing great! Don't be shy!) the man finally, and slowly, hands me my change and i let out a breath of relief.
me: "thank you!" i'm about to walk away from the counter, happy that i was successful at my attempt of being brave with a stranger... but...

man: "hey, so... you're wearin' a ucsd sweater. you in school? what's your major?" and etc, etc. surprisingly, i become more relaxed and i answer his questions with kindness. inside, i'm congratulating myself that i'm now conversing with a complete stranger, and it is no other than a black man. Sweet!! i'm pretty sure i can talk to all strangers now without being nervous. Way to go!

as he continues the small talk, i decide that this conversation should come to an end. i was proud of myself for even just making eye contact with a stranger but i really didn't need to stay and chat. that's too much for me. i mean, i JUST learned how to make eye contact. i learn through baby steps. one step at a time!! haha.

me: "ok. well, i'm gonna go..."
man: "you single?"
me: ".... what?" i'm completely thrown off by this question.
man: "you single?"
me: "..yea.. (insert nervous laughter).... mmk, i'm gonna go.." by now, i'm only three steps away from the door.
man: "do you date black guys? hey, i have to ask."
me: "haha (nervous laughter).. i'm.. not.. umm.. (Think, selena! Think!) i'm not looking for anyone right now."
man: "ah, you ain't lookin' for anyone. haha, aiite then. that's coo." and just my luck, his black friend comes inside the store so the man's attention is now diverted to his friend. and as for me, i bolted out the door.

i learned a lot from this gas station. i learned that i CAN talk to strangers. but i also learned that if you're friendly to a guy, he might think you're interested in him. ughhh -_-;; mann.. i wonder if he thought i was racist. dangit. now i need to find a new gas station! argh.

to all the single friends

maybe it's because of the cold, wintery weather. or maybe it's because it's the holiday season and love is in the air. whatever the reason may be, i've been hearing this comment one too many times: "i'm lonely~ i want a gf/bf~" (this month, i heard it 10 times from 10 different guys and girls) hahaha, oh dear friends...

ladies and gents! not to worry! one day, all your waiting for that special someone will be worth it! you just haven't met him or her yet :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AJmKkU5POA

Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet
I'm not surprised
Not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times
I stop keeping track.
Talk myself in
I talk myself out
I get all worked up
And then I let myself down.

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought I thought of every possibility.

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

Mmmmm.....

I might have to wait
I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing
And the other half's luck
Wherever you are
Whenever it's right
You come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

Mmmmm.....

And somehow I know that it will all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
And in love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right
And we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

Mmmmm.....

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love love love love love love......
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet

puppy vs. mirror

guess who wins??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FpjyCE-R4Y4&feature=fvw

Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. -- James 1:22-24

♥ to ♥

i love ♥ to ♥ moments. aka one-on-ones. aka oprah moments.

i'm not a huge talker in big crowds. in fact, i avoid having more than 2 pairs of eyes on me as much as possible. i also tend to shy away from people who are super outgoing and are the center of attention. no matter how nice and friendly they are, i still get pretty intimidated by them. way to be gangster, selena...... -_-;; haha! oye.

i love one-on-ones. they're so real, and personal, and intimate. i love getting to know a person and learning about where s/he comes from and how s/he is the person s/he is today. i'm really fascinated by how there are so many people in this world and yet we act and think so differently. mm~ :)

post-college, i've been sharing many oprah moments with a lot of sisters. i've learned so much from them and i'm always so happy and blessed when i come home from a girl-date. i really do believe girls are the best. and this is not a biased opinion. hahaha jk :)

a childlike friendship

a childlike friendship is one in which you become friends with someone simply by letting them borrow your pencil, or helping them build a sandcastle, or sitting with them during lunch. there are no questions of, "am i just an acquaintance, or a friend, or an in-between of the two?" there are no labels in this type of friendship. and it is this childlike friendship that i desperately seek but no longer can find.

when i see children, i smile and yearn for their innocence and their simple minds. it makes me sad to know that when they grow up, they're going to break out of their naivety, face the harsh reality, and be clouded with doubts about people and life. sigh.

i miss being a kid.

kobe. amazing.

i love basketball. if i could be born again, i'd like to come back as an all-star basketball player. MVP! tahaha!! :D

in last night's game, lakers were down by just two points against heat. at the very last second, kobe bryant shot a 3-pointer and swoosh! he scored at the sound of the buzzer! 108-107!! SWEEET!!! even if you're not a fan of basketball, check out the clip. it's too awesome to miss! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUkBlGYaej4&NR=1

떠나고 싶다

정말 답답하다. 집에 있으면 부모닙들 때문에 불편한 점도 있고 숨을 못 쉬는 날도 많이 있다. 하나님을 믿는 친구들도 별로 없고 집에 있으면 교회를 안 간다. 그래서 난 san diego 에 더 살고 싶어했다. 여기에 있으면 자유가 있고 다니는 교회도 있다. 하지만.....

san diego의 생활도 지치기 시작했다. 많은 사람들이랑 만나긴 하는데 그 중에서 누가 내 진정한 친구일까? 교회 사람들도 마찬 가지다. 몇 주 전에 우연한 사건이 있어서 그 때문에 피하고 싶은 사람듵이 생겼다. 그리고 난 사람들을 부정적으로 ("negatively." i had to look this up, haha) 보이기 시작했다. 아!!~~ T_T;;

어디 먼 곳에 가고 싶다. 여행을 가거나 아니면 다른데에 살건아, 지금은 이 곳에서 떠나고 싶다... 웃는데 웃는게 아니다...

thank You

i'm truly thankful for everyone and everything in my life. from the basic needs such as a home, food, clothes, and clean water. to the special people like family, friends, and my good ole' heavenly Father. and for this particular entry, i'd like to give a shout out to those whom i love so dearly.

God: i am always forever thankful for Him and my salvation. it's because of Him that i'm capable of accepting me for who i am. that i can take delight in my hardships and struggles. that i know that everything will be all right. these past couple of months, my relationship with my Father has been stronger than ever. it's been completely amazing and i pray that my faith in Him will remain strong and continue to grow.

family: dad lost his job a few months ago and mom recently got into a car accident. i must admit, this was kind of hard for me to be thankful for. but God always prevails. now that my dad is at home, he helps my mom a lot around the house. this was a man who never, ever did any household chores but rather idly sat on the couch with his eyes glued to the tv. but now he's a hardworking house-husband who knows how to make a good kimchi jjigae. haha, wow. i'm really happy and thankful that he's finally helping and appreciating my mom for all that she does. and as for my mom.. this car accident has shaken her up a bit. but, she's ok and i'm just glad it wasn't a fatal accident. and amidst all the complaints i made about her in the previous entry, i know that she just cares about me a lot. love hurts sometimes, haha :)

friends: the old and the new friends. the honest and genuine friendships. a few weeks ago, i was hurt by someone who i thought was a friend. i was pretty much wallowing in my sorrow but thankfully, i realized how ridiculous i was being. i had temporarily forgotten about the real friends that i do have and how important these brothers and sisters are in my life. i'm so, so tremendously thankful for my friends who have accepted this random and quirky girl who asks one too many questions :P

and one more thing i'm thankful for...

my blog: i'm thankful for this blog in which i can freely write about anything. but i want to give thanks to you, the reader. this might sound strange but as you read this blog, i kind of believe that you're letting a little bit of me be a part of your life. and for that, i'm very thankful :)

i hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving this year, 2009. let's not be thankful on just this one day but be thankful all year round :) happy thanksgiving!

you drive me crazy

every time i come home for break, i get a bit nervous because i know my mom will ask about boys and dating. some of the things she says are pretty funny and ridiculous. but now, she's taken it to another level...

last night, i came home for thanksgiving break. when i came inside the house, my mom looked me up and down, and examined my face.

"what is up with your hair? and why don't you wear makeup? you're not a child anymore.. can you please, like, dress up? you can't attract guys like this..."

i was wearing a black jacket with blue jeans. and my hair was down but a bit messy because i had just gotten off the plane. why in the world would i want to dress up for an airplane ride??

after she criticized the way i looked and after adding more harsh comments, she asked, "you like girls, huh? are you a lesbian?"

ok. now i'm going to vent. WHAT THE HECK. is my goal in this world to get a guy?! am i suppose to be a girl who centers her life around boys?! and dating?! my mom is sooo....UGHHHH...... i'm sorry that i ain't boy-crazy, nor am i a super girly girl who cares for only makeup and fashion and all that superficial things (it also helps that i don't have money).

sigh... i do care about the way i look (who doesn't?) and yea, there are many things i'd like to shop for...but, really? is it really necessary to dress up in order to attract guys? is that my purpose in life? really?? that's sooo stupid! why do i need to revolve myself around boys, especially when they're mostly jerks? (i'm going through a i-hate-boys phase right now so forgive me if i offend anyone)

my goal in life is to live for God. my life is centered around Him and Him alone. not boys, not dating, not makeup and all the other worldly things. my main focus is God and what i can accomplish in this world before i die. i want to make the world a better place. i don't know how i'll do that through accounting but, i really hope that i can leave an impact on someone or something before i depart from this earth. THAT'S my goal. my passion. my purpose.

i wish i can make my mom understand that i really, strongly don't care about boys, and that i'm content with who i am. sigh. if only she and my dad could live their lives for God. then maybe she could grasp a little of how i feel and where i'm coming from.

kimchi jjigae

i made my first kimchi jjigae, hehe :) i rarely cook so this is kind of a big deal for me, even though it's really not a big deal at all.

cooking ain't easy. i don't know how my mom does it everyday after coming home late from work. there were countless times when i'd complain to her about the food. like, i want this but not this. or, i don't like this but i like this. my dad didn't make it easier on her, either, being the picky man that he is. man, it really makes me appreciate my mom a lot, a lot. if i can be at least half the woman she is, i'd be so grateful. but dang, i don't think i can be a mom...or a wife. it seems so hard! haha :P

anyways, here are pictures of my kimchi jjigae that i made for my dear christine. i used kimchi, pork, onions, gochujang (red pepper paste), and tofu:



next item on my list: doenjang jjigae! :)

yiruma

i'm really liking yiruma these days. he's a famous korean pianist who produces very elegant and beautiful music. it's so pretty and i can't get enough of it. it's so peaceful to listen to and it sounds a bit romantic. that's probably why some of his compositions have been featured in korean dramas, hehe. i really like his music.

when i was in high school, my dream was to be a music producer who created music much similar to yiruma's. i even considered applying to music schools, but the mother wanted me to attend a u.c like all asian parents. but, i don't blame her one bit. i would've never been able to produce such great music like yiruma's or hans zimmer, the talented composer who produced songs for more than 100 films including "pirates of the caribbean," "lion king," "the dark knight," "gladiator," etc, etc. ah, i miss playing the piano so much. i can't wait to go home this thanksgiving break and befriend my piano once again :)

yiruma's "river flows in you" is one of my favorites. check it out! it's currently my ringtone ♥ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1p_ebSseEq8

(special thanks to my dear wifey, christine jung, for introducing me to yiruma)

i look like a what?!

someone said i look like a kangaroo.

...what the random. i'm not sure if i simply remind that person of a kangaroo or if i really look like one. i guess i do jump up and down a lot.. but that's only when i'm happy or excited!

...perhaps i should stop jumping up and down. but what can i say? i'm free-spirited! haha :P

i didn't remember how a kangaroo looked like so i googled it and came across this picture:
hrm.. interesting. well, anyway, what animal do YOU look like? :)

**update: someone else told me i look like a pony. random.

sigh

sigh. how can a person whom you've had many great chats with and fun hangouts with just.. throw it all away? how can that person just.. no longer want to be a friend? no longer want to care for you as a person? no longer be comfortable to talk to you? it's so hard for me at times because that person and i have mutual friends. when these mutual friends talk about this person, i always have to put on a fake smile and pretend that we have a good relationship. and i always have to think of something nice to say about that person, when in reality, i'm hurting inside.

sigh. i'm selfish. i'm used to getting things my own way, in terms of friendships. if i want to be friends with someone, we usually become friends. but with this person, it's not possible. i'm trying to learn how to accept it but it's soo frustrating. maybe if we didn't have any mutual friends then it'd be easier for me to not care about this person. and honestly, we don't even need to be good friends. just, someone who will be comfortable around me rather than dump me as if i hadn't existed to begin with. dangit. if i had done something to harm this person, then i can accept this person throwing me away. but that's not even the case! nothing bad happened at all! :(

sigh. this person did no wrong at all. everyone's views on friendship is different and i know that i should respect that person's beliefs. i need to move on and perhaps try my best to erase the memory of this so-called friendship. i know that with time i won't be hurting anymore. but gosh. i hate knowing that someone out there is uncomfortable with me. well, i guess it's better being uncomfortable rather than being hated on.

... i care too much. i care too much about people and the little things like memories. that's really bad. if you care too much, you can get hurt easily. damnit. i should learn from the korean girl group, 2ne1, and sing their song, "i don't care." haha just kidding. sort of.

so proud

one of the happiest moments in my life is when the kids i tutor excitedly tell me that they did really well on their tests. i guess this is how parents feel when they watch their kids get good grades, or perform in the school play, or play in a sports game, and the list goes on.

today at tutoring, my 8th grade girl showed me her math quiz and test that she passed with flying colors. she's the top student in her math class right now, and i am so proud of her. according to her mom, she hasn't been doing too well in math for the previous years. but starting this new school year, i've seen her improve so much. and i'm so happy for her. after my session with the girl, her 6th grade brother walked in the room. he and i work on math and english, but i have him study more english than math. anyway, he proudly said that he got a 100% on his weekly vocabulary test, and i've noticed that these weeks, he's always been getting a perfect score on his tests. i'm so proud of him as well. here is cheyenne and vincent:
and finally, my 6 year old kid is reading with more confidence and fluency. she can pronounce hard words such as "rouge." i don't even know what that means! when i was 6, i was reading words like, "the cat in the hat" or something. haha, oh dear. this is ellen with her 2 yr old brother, brian:

i'm so proud of these kids. and i'm so glad that i can be of some help to them rather than steal money from their parents. hehe, just kidding! i like my kids very much :)

**on a side note, i just looked up "rouge" on dictionary.com. it means, "any of various red cosmetics for coloring the cheeks or lips." hahaha ok, whatever :P

relieved

the struggle with the cpa board is over. and now the battle between God vs. the unknown (that i had mentioned in my earlier post) is finally over. these past few weeks when my patience was running thin, i was unable to sleep and eat properly. oh gosh, that sentence sounds hella dramatic (fyi: i am not a drama queen).

however, for the first time last night, i was able to sleep so peacefully. and it felt so good.

i'm so grateful that i have finally learned how to first turn to God when i'm faced with challenges. but i must admit, it's kind of hard. my impatience usually gets the better of me and so, i want to take things under my control and make up my own answers and solutions to my problems. but in the end, i realize that i know nothing.

during my qt tonight, i came upon this verse: I sought the Lord, and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears. -- Psalms 34:4

even though we often become really impatient with God and tired of waiting for an answer, take comfort that He WILL answer. and there may be times when we don't like how He answers our prayers because it may not be what we want, but always remember that He has His reasons and no doubt, His reasons are waaayyyy better than our foolish desires.

phew. i'm so relieved. relieved that i can sleep. i can eat. no need to think about these struggles anymore. all i'm thinking about now is.... thanksgiving and christmas break! whee. yummy food. good company. home sweet home :)

cpa. it's on!

after waiting and waiting and waiting... i finally got a response from the cpa board. i am now approved to sit for the cpa exam. which means... i need to start studying NOW. i can't believe i'm saying this, but i am so psyched to study!! after having so much free time for the past couple of months, it just feels soo good to know that now, i''ll be doing something productive with my time. mann.. praise God. YES! :)

i'll be taking a review course for the 4-part exam starting in january. so, for the next year (plus more but hopefully not), i won't have a life. oh man, it's going to be hell. but.. i know it will be worth it :)

sigh. finally, finally. this particular weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in a song. -- Psalms 28:7

painful laughter

my first conversation with a friend that made me laugh soo much that it made my stomach hurt. a lot. to the point where i actually had to go to the bathroom in the middle of our chat.

i heart christine jung :)

me: i feel like baking but i dont know what to make. its been so long.. i miss it

christine: baking. for me?!

me: ha. you're funny.

christine: :'( y funny? it was an honest question

me: oh

me: shoot

me: hahahahahaha

me: oh christine. i wish you were my namja chingooo (namja chingoo means "boyfriend")

me: puahahahaa

christine: hey! why am i the namja? (namja means "boy")

me: fine i'll be the namja =)

me: *in my lowest and deepest voice* will you, christine jung, be my better half?

christine: HAHAHAHAHAHA

christine: AHAAHHAA

christine: <3>

christine: of course!

me: aww yayyy! =) =)

christine: u know what's sad tho?

me: what

christine: ur not the first person to say that to me -_-

christine: the namja chingoo thing

me: PUAHAHAHA

christine: i must be like manly or something

me: what the hell. who are you cheating on me with?!

christine: HAHAHA

christine: omg so sorry!!

christine: i was talking about previous. previous instances

me: forget it

me: its over

me: you hurt me

christine: wait

christine: selena!

christine: wait

christine:

christine: u can't be serious!

me: ...

me: i dont think i can date a player. just not my thing, yenno

christine: is this officially our first fight?

me: PUAHAHAHAHA

me: omgggg

christine: i'm not a player... i just was talking about long long time agooo

christine: u know???

me: ok. fine

christine: i'm sorry!

me: sigh. i'll forgive you. just this once =)

christine: *phew* that was scary. i'm glad we've put that behind us

me: me too. so, is this official?

christine: i guess so

me: should we make it official on facebook?

christine: HAHAHAHAHA

me: let the whole world know about us

christine: HAHAHAHAHA

christine: i'm down!

christine: HAHAHAHAHAA

me: puahahahaha

christine: wait so who's wearing the pants again?

me: i guess im the man

christine: okay~ that makes sense. you're older

me: haha oh thats right

christine: but then you're way smaller... hm.

me: HEY

christine: i mean

christine: not

christine: i'm sorry

me: -_-

christine: crap

christine: fight #2 already?

me: no, i'll let this one go

christine: okay thank u

me: bc its true.

christine: HAHAHA

me: so im the man?

me: im sorry you're dating a small guy

me: with a hella squeaky voice

me: wish i can be more manlier

me: but you know, you gotta accept me for who i am. yenno?

christine: of course yuboh (yuboh is a term for a husband/wife)

me: HAAHAHAHAHAHA

me: phew ok. i need a break. my tummy hurts from laughing

christine: i know me too

christine: i'm like

christine: in a public place

christine: everyone thinks i'm retarded

christine: some girl asked if she could use the rolling table next to me

christine: and i like

christine: just looked at her

christine: b/c i was thinking about something u just said

christine: and i was grinning like an idiot

christine: and she just asked again

me: AHAHAHAHAHAHAA

christine: HAHAHAHAHAH

christine: SHH

christine: i'm not dumb

christine: but i felt pretty embarrassed

me: omg im dying

me: from laughter

christine: hahaha

me: can i tell u something?

me: its kinda tmi

me: but u might get a kick out of it

christine: okay

me: earlier when i said that all this laughing made my tummy hurt

christine: uh oh

christine: HAHAHA

me: it really did make me hurt. so right now, i just went #2

christine: what the

christine: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

me: you made me go #2!!!!

christine: that was hecka fast

me: AHHAAHAHAHAAHA

christine: HAHAAAHHAAH

christine: EW HAHAHA

me: yah, it was hekka fast

me: omg. thats a first for me

christine: HAHHAHA

me: that laughter made me go to the bathroom

christine: HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAH