a negative skew

it's been hard. these days. or weeks. actually, this month.

i'm slipping away. from the one person who is always trustworthy. but my many misgivings are blinding me from wanting to spend time with Him. when i really should be turning to Him during this time of hate. all this mistrust that i have... it's been horrible. my views on the opposite sex are skewed. so skewed. skewed in the negative direction. it's bad. real bad.

i hate the fact that my thoughts are so skewed. and i hate the feeling of hate (haha). i sincerely feel like i'm being brainwashed. that i need to stay away from the whole male species. but i know that girls are as untrustworthy as guys, too, and i know that we're all sinners. but despite all this, i have little to no respect for guys (with the exception of friends). oh, man. i'm such a jerk.

hmm. all this talk about being skewed reminds me of my highschool stats class. do you remember the normal distribution with the mean at the center and all is balanced? it looks like this:but i've become a negatively skewed distribution. hate>love:

as time goes by, i pray that i'll become a positively skewed distribution. love>hate:

... i just compared my emotions to a mathematical principle. what a nerd.