tears of heaven

i usually don't like the rainy weather, mainly because my shoes and pants get drenched, but also because people are forced to drive at 35mph on the freeway and there are a lot more car accidents on a rainy day.

but today, i enjoyed the rain. it rained so hard and the winds were so strong as well. it surprises me at times that the season is still winter. i'm so forgetful of this since san diego is usually sunny, no matter what month it is.

mm, rain. when i was younger, i used to think that rain was the tears of God. whenever it rained really hard, i believed that God was really upset about something. i remember a day when it rained so much that my mom and i were stuck on the freeway for hours. the weather was so scary and i was really terrified. so i looked up through my foggy window and secretly asked God to stop crying so that my mom and i could go home safely. i also remember reasoning with God that if He stopped crying, then i'd be a good girl.

well, later on, i found out that rain is not the cries of God. silly me. but you know what? even though God doesn't physically cry, He does cry out when we sin. our sins hurt Him so much. everytime we sin, we're stabbing Him with a knife, taking it out, and stabbing Him again and again and again. i hate that. don't you? i hate sin. i hate what it does to me and i hate what it does to Him. but the crazy thing of all is, no matter how much we hurt Him with our evil ways, He still forgives us when we genuinely ask for forgiveness. crazy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKrVDSY7ick&feature=related

Hillsong- All for Love
All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

All for love a Savior prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to you