reality check

i have a friend who makes me feel like i'm the most horrible person ever. it brings me down at times but it also challenges me to be a better person. i'm thankful for this friend. God has definitely been using my friend to show me what an unloving and very immature and foolish girl i have and always have been. here i was, thinking that i may have grown up a bit, but no way. in reality, i truly am a horrible person. i still lack in so many ways and there are so many characteristics that i need to improve on. i have never felt so inadequate as i do now.

but this slap-in-the-face is good. it motives me to want to be a very compassionate person and a devoted daughter of God. i hope i can be this girl someday.

and on a side note:

you know, i think all of us are so concerned with what type of guy or girl we'd like and we'd want to date/marry... but we rarely think of how we can be a good boy/girlfriend or husband/wife. i keep hearing from older women that we should pray for our significant other... but i also think it's important to pray for ourselves. for example, how we can be more caring, more giving, more loving while being less prideful, less stubborn, less impatient. and in a christian relationship, how we can help each other grow in Christ. mm.. yea.. anyways.

an encouragement to myself: grow up, fool.