own me

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Ginny Owens - Own Me

Got a stack of books,

So I could learn how to live;

Many are left half-read,

Covered by the cobwebs on my shelf.

And I got a list of laws,

Growing longer everyday;

If I keep pluggin' away,

Maybe one day I'll perfect myself.

Oh, but all of my labor,

Seems to be in vain;

And all of my laws,

Just cause me more pain;

So I fall before You,

In all of my shame;

Ready and willing to be changed.

Own me

Take all that I am,

And heal me

With the blood of the Lamb.

Mold me

With Your gracious hand;

Break me till I'm only Yours

Own me

Oh, you call me Daughter,

And you take my blame;

And you run to meet me,

When I cry out Your name,

So I fall before You,

In all of my shame.

Lord, I am willing to be changed.

나쁜 놈

seems like i'm always getting hurt.

left and right, always being inert

to these so-called friendships.

it's like looking at a comic strip

but without the jokes and laughs;

a girl's delicate heart breaks in half.

one after the other,

and then comes another.

hoping for a change with this one

but it's all the same in the long run.

he will leave, she will leave,

and i'm the only one left to grieve.

but you who leaves will never see

the somber pain you've given me.

for when you see me, i'll be strong,

hide the real me, and jolly along.

to this day, you still don't know

but would you care? no, you won't.

sometimes i think that i really hate you.

but no matter how hard i try, i really don't.

i really wish i could hate you.

but foolishly, i still care for you

even if you don't care for me at all.

i scream for ice cream!

it's almost the end of august and the sd weather has finally decided to cooperate. it definitely feels like summer now. although i'm glad to see that people are happily basking in the sun, i've been cooped up inside, trying to study in a non-ac environment, sweating along the way and fighting the urge to just lay down and do nothing. it's been like this for the past week and i think i've been slowly turning into a grump.

after a long, grueling day of intense studying, i was feeling pretty miserable. it was a combination of the heat + studies + other things that just really bummed me out. but! the day ended on a really good note :) a group of buddies whom i secretly call, "the entourage," spontaneously came over. one of them had brought ice cream!! i wanted one so badly today~ hehe, thank you mister ha :) it felt so refreshing to play outside at the park on a cool summer night while enjoying a scrumptious oreo cookie ice cream sandwich with good people. i have to admit, i was a very happy child in a 23-year-old body. yay :)

a boyfriend's blunder

i was studying at tnm today with some friends. we were talking about our upcoming tests -- pcat, gre, cpa -- when a young asian guy sitting at a table next to ours interrupted us. the conversation went something like this:

guy: "i'm sorry but what test are you talking about?"

my friend: "oh, the pcat."

guy: "what's that?"

my friend: "it's a test for pharmacy school."

guy: "oh, i see. i thought you were talking about the mcats. my girlfriend is taking her mcats right this minute."

my friend: "your girlfriend must be smart. is she smart? i hope she does well on her exam."

guy: "no, i don't think she's....... i mean, yea, i hope she does well on it, too."

PUAHAHAHA!!! the guy's response was so funny. dude, if he had finished his train of thought, and if his girlfriend was there to hear what he had to say about her intelligence, or lack of, OH EM GEE. hahaha.

no boys!

today, my soon-to-be-in-9th grade, boy-crazy girl told me that she wrote a long list of goals she wants to achieve in high school. i asked her what her goals were, expecting her to say something like, getting straight-A's. but, this boy-crazy girl yelled, "no boys!!" hahahhaa!!! the conversation went something like this:

girl: i wrote a very long list of goals for high school in my diary.

me: oh, what are some of your goals?

girl: NO BOYS!!

me: hahahaha!!! do you mean not dating or not liking boys?

girl: well, i can't date until i'm 18 years old. so, i guess i mean that i don't want to like boys.

me: hahahhaa, that might be a bit hard for you since you've liked so many of them!

girl: hehehehe, yea it's going be really hard. but you know what? you shouldn't start liking a guy without getting know him.

me: yes!!! exactly!!

girl: YEA! don't like a guy without getting to know him!!

me: hahaha OK!! :)

hehehe, she reminded me of a very valuable lesson today. i hope she listens to her own wise words... but i'm pretty sure once high school starts, i'm going to hear many stories about her new crushes, hahahaha~

'love room gift'

i am on a mission.

to find this old school korean candy.

they are round -- not too big, not too small.

fit perfectly in my mouth.

they come in several tasty fruity flavors.

red, orange, yellow, green, purple. even white!

the colors of the rainbow! minus the blue.

the biggest korean market in sd doesn't have it.

but that doesn't mean it's not out there.

it still exists. still being produced.

one day, i'll find this candy.

translated in english, it's called...

"love room gift." 사랑방 선물.

what a long and strange name for a candy.

but anyway.

one day...

i will find it.

and eat it.

mm~ yum.

nothing better

music. is. soo. awesome.

especially gooood music.

my roommate introduced me to a korean ballad last night. i haven't listened to ballads in a really long time. actually, i'm not a big fan of korean ballads because they're soo depressing and dramatic; they actually make my heart ache, haha. it's like watching a korean drama, but instead of watching it, i'm listening to it. anyways, when my roommate started to play the song on youtube, i was very skeptical and i kind of rolled my eyes. but she reassured me that this wasn't one of those "i'm-gonna-die-if-you're-gone" kind of songs. nope. this is a very calm, sweet, and beautifully written song with a soft melody. i like it a lot. one of my favorites :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=be0TMZ2CV9U&feature=related

here's the english translation:

Brown Eyed Soul - Nothing Better

It always appeared before me

your face, I remember.

My heart that stopped short,

you spitefully took my dysfunctional heart.

And with your bright smile,

that's how you easily opened my heart.

That's how I became your man.

All my unpleasant memories I no longer recall.

Because the hand that holds me tight

is as warm as spring.

And now like a dream, my heart

has gradually stopped by your side.

Without awakening for a single moment,

I dream an endless dream.

And now like breathing,

if you were to always rest by my side,

if you were to always remain this way.

nothing better, nothing better than you

nothing better, nothing better than you.

And now like a dream, my heart

in your embrace is held still.

Without awakening for a single moment,

I dream an endless dream.

And now like breathing,

if you were to always rest by my side,

if you were to always remain this way

nothing better, nothing better than you

nothing better, nothing better than you

His thoughts

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

neither are your ways my ways,"

declares the Lord.

"As the heavens are higher than the earth,

so are my ways higher than your ways

and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9