so here's an update

i don't really have much to write about. my previous posts have been dry and somber. but i really do miss writing in here, and though i have nothing out-of-the-ordinary/funny/inspiring to say... i'm just going to give an update. this is kind of my way of replying to emails that i have yet to respond to (sorry for the late replies! i WILL write back, i promise).

-- it's hard to see people come and go. within the past 2 weeks, 2 of my favorite brothers from church have left to go to their respective places. before these guys came along, i had no genuine friendship with a church brother. but after becoming good friends with them, i was able to experience and learn so much from them. it makes me sad that they've left san diego, but i'm also excited to see what God has in store for them. i hope that this phrase, "out of sight, out of mind" will not come true; rather, i hope we'll still keep in touch.

-- p90x is going pretty well. this is my 6th week. my arms and legs are becoming tighter but i really wish i could see a change in my stomach :( where are you, abs?! haha, anyways. dude, working out is awesome. not only does it feel good, but it also helps me mentally. my fear of doing anything athletic has lessened, too! i can now ride a skateboard and not be afraid to fall!! anddd i'm starting to like playing sports. haha dangg.. the only thing i still don't like is running. bleh.

-- i set a punishment for myself. if i'm unable to achieve this one particular goal by next june, then as a punishment, i'm going to move back home. i really don't want to live with my parents in a place where i have no accountability, no church... the old selena might resurface again and that will definitely not be a pretty sight. so, i'm really worried. but i guess this is why it's a punishment.

-- my spiritual walk needs a lot of work. i think i've just been kind of stuck at this one point. i know i'm not falling away, but i'm also not growing. i've been lazy and perhaps this is why everything else in my life has been kind of whatevers. no passion. no drive. no zeal.

-- too many girls around me want to get married right now. dang. just thinking about marriage terrifies me a lot, a lot. even just listening to these girls talk about it scares me. *shudder* i still feel like i'm too young... but my biological clock says otherwise.

that's it for my update. i can't believe it's already november...~