struggling

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. -- Ephesians 4:22-24

after accepting Christ back in '05, i saw myself change from a very angry and pessimistic girl to a more merry and confident woman. but one thing that hasn't changed are my sins. i thought that after being saved, i would be better at not sinning. quite the contrary, however. i struggled with my sins every day, and i still do. no matter how hard i try "to put on the new self" and to live my life for God, i still can't seem to escape from my depravity. how did Jesus do it? during His time on earth, He never ever sinned. even when satan tempted Him multiple times, He never caved. i wonder if, during that time, He ever struggled internally. i'm thinking that He didn't because He's Jesus. 100% God. but then again, He was also 100% Man. hmm... anyway.

thank You, Father, for Your grace and Your mercy to accept this lowly child who is in a constant battle with her sins.