quote

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.

-- bob marley

things i can't say aloud

i'm beginning to see that.. there are people who i care for.. who are very dependent on alcohol. and it scares me.. and worries me.. but i don't know what to do? or, am i to do anything? to say anything? i've been in denial for quite awhile.. and turning the other cheek, pretending not to see the truth.. making up excuses for them..

and lately, i've been hearing stories about those who have become so addicted to alcohol that it has ruined their lives and the lives around them. i don't want that to happen to any of my friends, anyone that i know. it's so heartbreaking. to be addicted to this liquid that looks so harmless yet is so potent.

and.. not that smoking is "as bad" as being an addict to alcohol.. but it really bothers me.. to see the people i cherish smoke. i've seen how a cigarette can control a person's actions firsthand and it was far from being pleasant. i really wish they would quit..

bonkers

i am going bonkers while trying to do everything all at once. why can't accounting grad schools have just ONE application with the same essay topic and the same prereqs and the same deadline, like how the UC system has one application? and i believe law schools have one application as well. ahh.. it would be easier, not just for myself, but for my recommenders, too. i feel bad that they have to go through the trouble of either mailing a hard copy or uploading their rec letters onto multiple websites. i'm so sorry, professor/employer! T.T sigh sigh.

bonkers. when i hear or use this word, i think of the cartoon series, "Animaniacs," from the '90s. i'm not sure why, haha. did you know the executive producer for this series was steven spielberg? what a creative genius.

shrug

it isn't just my mom who's worried about me for never having dated anyone, or that i'm not dating anyone at my "old" age. but it's my whole extended family who are seriously concerned about me. i'm not sure how i feel about my aunts and uncles talking about me.. and worrying about me.. perhaps even feeling sorry for me? maybe even feeling sorry for my mom? 

i don't feel very good about it. i wish i can tell them that they shouldn't be so worried; i'm not even worried! and i'm not worried.. bc.. i don't think it's that important. what's so wrong about a girl being single, and maybe remaining single for the rest of her life? will they always feel sorry for me and my mom as long i'm single? i don't ever want to see them look at me with a sadness in their eyes..

sigh.