reflecting back on 2013

two thousand thirteen was a beautiful, eye-opening year. from january to december, God was present in my life in ALL things. He blessed me with:

-- a top 10 graduate school

-- a passion for nonprofits

-- a direction in life

-- a church in LA

-- the delicious foods and the city of LA (a city that i had once strongly hated and refused to stand foot in)

-- deeper relationships with friends and family members

-- a job offer at an accounting firm that has a strong presence in the nonprofit sector

-- an opportunity to get involved with and meet the jubilee project (my dream came true.. unbelievable)

-- a courage to pray for family meals

-- a trip to texas and bahamas

-- rockets vs clippers game (jeremy lin! woot!)

-- challenges that made me face my insecurities/fears that i never once thought i'd ever have to deal with

-- someone really special

what i've learned from this past year is the meaning of dependence.  through all the trials that i had to face, no one could comfort me the way God did.  at times, there was really no one to turn to for help, and there wasn't anyone in particular that i could ask for help other than God.  i feel as though i cried out to God so many times this past year, more so than any of the previous years. actually, yeaaaa... i cried A LOTTT... but a lot of those tears were tears of joy :) i've never had soo many tears of joy before, haha. i guess it's true that the older you become, the more sensitive you are....? shrug.

2014... makes me anxious. i have to revisit the "inner demons" again... not looking forward to facing them... but hopefully, this time around, things will be different. hopefully.

giving it ALL to You, Jesus.