the beauty of God

One thing have I asked of the Lord,
that I will seek after:
that I may dwell in the
house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of
the Lord
and to inquire in His temple.
-- Psalm 27:4

lately, i've been finding myself with tears in my eyes because i've been so overwhelmed with gratitude towards God.  it's through a special relationship that i'm seeing what it means to share God's love with someone and to be like Jesus to them. i'm so amazed by God's presence in this relationship -- He is so alive that i actually see His good works unraveling before me.

and it's through all of this that i'm seeing, experiencing, craving God's beauty. it's not a physical beauty that i'm attracted to nor that i can define, but it's His always-providing, always-loving character that consumes me and leaves me in tears of joy and thankfulness.

God is beautiful.  i never understood how Christians used this adjective to describe God since none of us can actually see His physical being.  but i think i understand now.. it wasn't His physical appearance that they were referring to but that it was His character, His nature, His whole-being.

this relationship... it's been interesting.  who would've thought that i would be experiencing and tasting God's love more and more through a relationship with a boy? weird. yet. really, really good :)

the small details

what is it about the very minute details that women are so attentive about? and if a man doesn't notice the same small details, it drives the woman crazy and in the end, she feels unloved.

one woman argued, "it's common sense! why can't he see that?!"
but is it really common sense? it can be common sense to women, but to men, i truly believe that they're oblivious. so, how do you resolve the issue?

i feel like my part-time job is of one being a psychologist, trying to resolve one of the universal and mysterious differences between men and women.

... i have yet to find an answer.