the beauty of God

One thing have I asked of the Lord,
that I will seek after:
that I may dwell in the
house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of
the Lord
and to inquire in His temple.
-- Psalm 27:4

lately, i've been finding myself with tears in my eyes because i've been so overwhelmed with gratitude towards God.  it's through a special relationship that i'm seeing what it means to share God's love with someone and to be like Jesus to them. i'm so amazed by God's presence in this relationship -- He is so alive that i actually see His good works unraveling before me.

and it's through all of this that i'm seeing, experiencing, craving God's beauty. it's not a physical beauty that i'm attracted to nor that i can define, but it's His always-providing, always-loving character that consumes me and leaves me in tears of joy and thankfulness.

God is beautiful.  i never understood how Christians used this adjective to describe God since none of us can actually see His physical being.  but i think i understand now.. it wasn't His physical appearance that they were referring to but that it was His character, His nature, His whole-being.

this relationship... it's been interesting.  who would've thought that i would be experiencing and tasting God's love more and more through a relationship with a boy? weird. yet. really, really good :)