this year, i was challenged in so many ways. it was definitely one of the more difficult years i've ever had, and as i approach a new year, more trials seem to spring up in the remaining month of this year.
from an unbeliever's point of view, i think it would be hard to be thankful for this year. but praise God, as a believer, i am incredibly thankful that 2014 has been THE year that i got to experience God the most. i have never experienced His Spirit so alive in my heart; my whole body shivers in such delight and amazement. in each wilderness i had to face (and am currently facing), God has been walking with me, side by side, grasping my hand firmly. and telling me, "just walk with Me."
thankYou, Father, for never leaving my side. You've been drawing me closer to You, helping me see more of You in my life. You are covering me with Your grace and protection, and You always have been. without a doubt, the many challenges You gave me was for my own good, and i truly believe this. thankYou for this year, for all of the highs and lows. thankYou for awakening my soul and keeping me spiritually alive. more of You, and less of me.
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Thursday, November 20, 2014
who are You, God?
so many things have happened since my last entry in june. i would love to write everything out but my purpose to visit this blog was to write about one thing:
i am bestfriend-less.
as i was watching God transform me in this past year, i was also noticing that i was becoming distant with someone who i claimed was my bestfriend. it bothered me that i was feeling this way and i couldn't exactly pinpoint the reason as to why i would cringe at the word, "bestfriend," each time i described her to someone. i was rejoicing at the fact that i was being drawn closer to God, but did this mean that i was being drawn away from her? (ESPECIALLY bc she is a nonbeliever)
during today's morning prayer, it hit me that i now understand why i've been feeling this way for quite some time now. it's bc God wants to be my bestfriend, and i want Him to be my bestfriend, too. but what's preventing this from coming true is my struggle with His physical absence. i know He's always present in my life, but i feel like His intangible-ness keeps me from having a deeper friendship with Him.
i guess i just want to know Him more on a personal level...
i am bestfriend-less.
as i was watching God transform me in this past year, i was also noticing that i was becoming distant with someone who i claimed was my bestfriend. it bothered me that i was feeling this way and i couldn't exactly pinpoint the reason as to why i would cringe at the word, "bestfriend," each time i described her to someone. i was rejoicing at the fact that i was being drawn closer to God, but did this mean that i was being drawn away from her? (ESPECIALLY bc she is a nonbeliever)
during today's morning prayer, it hit me that i now understand why i've been feeling this way for quite some time now. it's bc God wants to be my bestfriend, and i want Him to be my bestfriend, too. but what's preventing this from coming true is my struggle with His physical absence. i know He's always present in my life, but i feel like His intangible-ness keeps me from having a deeper friendship with Him.
i guess i just want to know Him more on a personal level...
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