so many things have happened since my last entry in june. i would love to write everything out but my purpose to visit this blog was to write about one thing:
i am bestfriend-less.
as i was watching God transform me in this past year, i was also noticing that i was becoming distant with someone who i claimed was my bestfriend. it bothered me that i was feeling this way and i couldn't exactly pinpoint the reason as to why i would cringe at the word, "bestfriend," each time i described her to someone. i was rejoicing at the fact that i was being drawn closer to God, but did this mean that i was being drawn away from her? (ESPECIALLY bc she is a nonbeliever)
during today's morning prayer, it hit me that i now understand why i've been feeling this way for quite some time now. it's bc God wants to be my bestfriend, and i want Him to be my bestfriend, too. but what's preventing this from coming true is my struggle with His physical absence. i know He's always present in my life, but i feel like His intangible-ness keeps me from having a deeper friendship with Him.
i guess i just want to know Him more on a personal level...
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