wuss

one of my greatest weaknesses is that i fear man. and too often, i find myself fear man more than i fear God. i am so cautious of what i say or how i act around people because i don't want them to view me negatively. sometimes i wonder if i'm being fake or if i'm being real. i don't really know. i wish i were more of a risk-taker than a risk-averse person. then, i wouldn't find myself on a friday night wondering if i should call up a friend and see how they're doing. and yet, here i am, still wondering if i should call them up, or just let the hours pass by and it'll be too late to call. and my excuse for not calling would not be because i was afraid to call (i'm afraid if i call, the friend might think i'm annoying or needy. or the friend might be busy and i don't want to be the one to bother them), but because it was just too late to call. frankly speaking, i'm a wuss.

When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose words I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me? -- Psalms 56:3-4

... well, it's 11:16pm right now. it's too late to call, haha...-_-;;