convoluted thoughts

feelin a bit glum. writin in this blog to try to become. less distraught. with all these convoluted thoughts. maybe rhymin would ease my mind. makin words intertwine. sigh. dunno where i'm goin with this. ramblings and babblings. i'm in an incoherent, imperfect abyss. decisions to make. about church n friends n whatever else i partake. one thing's for sure. through my anxieties, my hunger for Him is still so sweet n so pure. i was showered by His grace last week. got into an accident on my way to bible study but no need to freak. funny thing is, just a few hours before, i had asked God for a punishment like this. "Punish me, O Lord, for my biggest, most difficult sin. One that i struggle with n just can't seem to win." God punished but He also provided. the other driver -- bless his soul, his heart, i hope he's saved. he let me off the hook, then sped away n waved. "Are you ok?" was the only thing he asked. not just once or twice, but three times. isn't he so nice? the song that was playin in my car durin the accident was "Your Grace is Enough." how ironic yet oh, so beautiful. guess what the sermon at bible study was about? GRACE. grace that i do not deserve. you and i, we need to observe. God's love n His power. every day, in every hour.

lots of things to think about. goodness, my head hurts beyond a doubt. but here's a verse i must remember. came across this on the first day of september. freestyle is adjourned for now. goodbye as i sign off with a bow.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -- Philippians 4:6-7