murder

last night, i had the most terrifying dream of my life. it was so vivid and gory. blood was splattered everywhere. people were panicking and running for their lives but one by one, i watched them get shot or blown up. oh my gosh. i remember feeling scared and anxious, wondering when i'd get shot, too.

but...

i think i was the murderer. i was the last person alive. i wasn't hurt but i was bloody. but i remember it wasn't my blood. it was everyone else's blood all over my hands.

and that's when i woke up.

what does this mean?!

according to dream moods dictionary:

"To dream that you have committed a murder, indicates that you are putting an end to an old habit and a former way of thinking. This could also refer to an end to an addiction. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you have some repressed aggression or rage at yourself or at someone. Note also that dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.

To dream that you witness a murder, indicates deep-seated anger towards somebody. Consider how the victim represents aspects of yourself that you want to destroy or eliminate."

there is something i would like to put an end to and i was thinking about this before i had gone to sleep. it crosses my mind everyday and i've thought about it for awhile now, but it's not something i could easily put an end to. but wow, i didn't think it troubled me this much... sigh.

how do you end a friendship when the other person has done nothing wrong at all but is merely becoming a closer friend to you?

what a mess.