it's like this.

a lot of my friends around me have been feeling very sad about this uncertain period in their young adult life. not too long ago, i witnessed a friend crying so hard because s/he did not know what s/he wanted to do and where to go in life. sigh. i'm in the same boat as you, friend.

i really dislike this stage in life. maybe i would like it more if someone could just tell me what to do. it's funny how we crave for freedom and get angry at people for telling us what to do, and yet when we receive the opportunity to make our own decisions, we end up being more confused and bitter. i'm an indecisive person so it would really help me out if someone could make the decisions for me and i would follow accordingly. oh, i wish.

but there's something good about this uncertainty. really, there is. during this time, i'm learning more of who i am and who i'd like to be. i'm becoming a little bit more comfortable about myself, too, and i'm seeing more clearly of how God is still working in my life. sure, His voice is not audible and sure, i can't visibly see Him. but i know that when i have my meetups with samoneem or meetups with friends, it's so evident and apparent that He's really here with us and working in us. and you know what i was thinking? even if God revealed to us His plan, or if He showed us what to do, would we really understand what He's showing us? i mean, He's given us so much on this earth already, more than enough, but we're still so very puzzled by the things that He's given us. for instance, we don't know why He created such-and-such this way, or we don't know why this-and-that happened... our simple and sinful minds prevent us from seeing the big picture of God. BUT. one thing we should always keep in mind is that we DO know that whatever He has in store for us will definitely be worth the wait. and dude, it's gonna be realllyyy good. but our job is to TRUST in Him and to put our FAITH in Him and to PRAY to Him. always.

on a random note, i like having breakfast in bed. haha.