not yet

... yea, i'm not ready.

2012 resolution.

stick to it.

passion

ever since i signed up with twitter, i've been exposed to different types of people who each have a strong passion or a life-long dream that s/he wants to fulfill. i suddenly found myself following these people, wanting to learn more about their goals and their motivation behind their goals. after looking at a multitude of people's twitters, i took a step back and realized that i don't have a passion for anything.

i've been living life day-to-day, seeing time pass by me, and life just seems so stagnant. i wish i could wake up every morning and cheerfully say that today will be another day to strive for my goal(s). but instead, i wake up and think of the meals i'll be having, or which coffee shop i'll be studying at, or what time the knicks will be playing. (haha)

i feel like the tin-man from the wizard of oz who has no heart -- who feels nothing, really. but don't get me wrong; i love my family and friends, i love my life in san diego, and i even strangely appreciate studying for the gmats. or maybe i appreciate it because it gives me an excuse to enjoy some peace and quiet at a cafe almost every day. hmm. haha, anyways.

the point is... i want a dream. a goal. a passion. i don't want to live another day where i'm just living life because it's the only choice i have. i want to live life for a reason, a purpose, a calling. what does God want me to do or who does He want me to become? i wish i knew the answer. you would think after almost a quarter of a century, i would finally know my heart's desires. but to be honest... i don't.

but i hope that one day, something will spark my interest and will make me feel like i've been born for "this," whatever "this" may be.

shinhwa

after being on hiatus since 2007, one of my all-time favorite kpop boy bands is back! hello, SHINHWA!! :D this group of 14yrs has brought me so much joy and happiness and comfort.. i still remember blasting their music when i was sad, or angry, or super happy.. their music would be on repeat for days in my mom's car while she drove me to school or wherever we had to go.. i would always have to listen to their cd's before i went to bed. sometimes, i would sleep really late just to listen to their songs, haha. my parents saw me crush SOO hard on junjin, and then dongwan, and then eric. my mom started to develop her own crush on dongwan! hahaha~ i remember drawing sketches of some of them, and would cut out newspaper clippings of them.. oh my, oh my... i was crazy in love with these 6 boys :)

whee, i'm so happy! the combination of j.lin and shinhwa has made me feel like a teenage fangirl all over again, haha. i love it! *squeals with joy* :)

jeremy lin #17

my feeble words will not do any justice to what an amazing player and person jeremy lin is. but that's okay because at least i'm being sincere, haha. so, here's my post on jeremy lin :)

ever since linsanity erupted the nba world, i've been so consumed and enthralled over the knicks' roller-coaster season. from losing game after game, to the arrival of jeremy lin's unexpected twist that led to 2 weeks of glorious linning (i mean, winning) 7 games in a row, spiraling down to a 6-game losing streak, and the announcement of coach d'antoni's resignation, they are finally back to a winning streak. boy, it has definitely been a crazy and unpredictable journey, and it has sparked a HUGE interest among millions of people, even those who'd care more for a hot wing than a basketball. i mean, how can you NOT be intrigued by it all?!

i've always liked jeremy lin and kept my eye on him since he first signed with the warriors. i added him on facebook and followed him on twitter since then. and so, it greatly saddened me when i read his posts that he had been waived from the warriors, and then waived from the rockets. i'd tweet him encouraging words and showed my support (though i'm sure he hasn't seen a single one of them among the many tweets he receives from fellow fans... it's too bad, though, since i put so much heart into it, haha). but the funny thing is, in his tweets, he didn't show any sadness or any disappointment. nope, none at all. instead, he did the exact opposite and THANKED the teams for giving him a wonderful opportunity. and he never once failed in mentioning His Almighty. this is just a glimpse of who jeremy lin is. how can you expect me to NOT like him?!

he's incredibly humble, deeply passionate, and infallibly in love for God. he doesn't care to be the star player on his team, but he helps make his team, as a whole, a STAR. he never takes the credit whenever he makes a good play, but always credits his teammates for their plays. though the path to the NBA has been anything but smooth for this 23-year old, from facing racial discrimination to being dropped to the d-league multiple times, he never lost hope and kept his faith and trust in God.

i'm so excited to see what else God has in store for him. his dream is to become a pastor, go on missions, and help the underprivileged children. is he forreal?? yep, he's forreal. and THAT is what i love about him. mad props to you, #17! :)