i know that God is omnipresent and He's probably watching me write this entry. but... lately, i've been feeling like God isn't here right now and He's far, far away. maybe He's on vacation. i've never felt this way before where it is God on vacation as opposed to me being on vacation from Him. i don't know how to make sense of it. i'm not spiritually down or anything, but perhaps i'm mistaking this feeling for another one? like, hmm... maybe i'm not feeling the Holy Spirit within me. He kind of just... mysteriously vanished. and i feel nothing. no sadness, no anger. simply confused. where did He go, i wonder.
i'm still doing my devotionals. but the bible is feeling more and more like a book. an ordinary book. not as God's Word, not as His instrument that He can speak to us through. but just a plain old book. hrm... i'm so confused.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. -- Psalm 51:12
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