Thursday, June 17, 2010

patience is a virtue

God really loves to test me, doesn't He? He doesn't want to test my patience through only one person but rather, multiple persons all at the same time. why does He do this, i wonder. but anyway, here are the people who i've been bothered by recently.

person A: how can you say to me with a straight-face, "you watch basketball?? but you're a girl! do you even know what basketball is? the definition of basketball?" WOW. and after i had briefly shared with you on what i'm struggling with for a mere 5 minutes (while you had ranted on and on about your manager for a good 25-30minutes), you still had the nerve to say, "your situation isn't that bad." well, buddy, YOUR situation isn't that bad, either! gosh.

person B: you came over to me and said you wanted to have conversations with people that you didn't really know because you were tired of sitting with the same people and talking about the same things with them. so, i helped you and asked you questions about yourself to carry on a conversation. but you obviously didn't like that because you said to me, "dang, girl! you ask too many questions." so, i shut up and wondered if you were going to do anything. it was quiet for a good 3 minutes, and then finally, you asked me a question. you don't even know me, you don't know what i'm doing in sd, but the FIRST question you ask me is, "are you dating ____?" wow, way to get to know who i am. and fyi, you may think that i'm annoying because i was asking you questions, but you're really annoying because you want to take control of EVERYTHING. can you just relax and kick back and let others do what they want to do? my goodness.

person C: every time i see you, you ask me the same questions over and over and over again. i was patient with this at first, but now i cringe at your questions/comments that you make in under 30 seconds! "you're taking the cpa. when's your test? your test is next month, right? july? have you been studying for it? you've been studying for it, right? you haven't been coming out to bible study. it's because you're studying. you're studying for the cpa. you're taking it next month." and this conversation plays over and over again EVERY time i see you. it's actually quite funny, now that i think about it, haha. and also, just because you're tall doesn't mean you need to extend your arm up and make me jump up to high-five your hand. and when i don't want to jump, you'll put your hand to a level that i can reach but when i'm about to high-five you, you move your hand up again! that is so degrading and so not funny. maybe it's funny the first time, but now it's annoying. AND, high-fiving my forehead is NOT cool. you can pat my head if you want, but high-fiving my forehead to taunt me on how short i am??!! that's just dumb.

person D: every time you get a new girl, you really want me to know and you want me to ask you questions because you really like the attention. when you IM me, i know now that it's not because you want to know how i'm doing but it's because you want to tell me about your new girl. except, you don't want to just tell me straight up. it's more fun for you to say things to make me curious and ask you questions. but when i show that i don't really care about your life and when i don't ask you the questions you want me to ask you, you get sad and sign off. hahaha, oh my gosh. grow up!! you're almost 30!

person E: you constantly tell me how you want to stop drinking and that you don't have any control over the amount of alcohol you consume. you keep telling me that you're not going to drink anymore and you say all the right things, and yet when i see you, you're on your bajillionth bottle and you're drunk. you are sooo unattractive when you're drunk because you're not a fun-drunk but a serious-drunk. and when you're a serious-drunk, man... you're just ugly (personality is ugly). i hate it. i really hate it.

so, these are the people that i've been dealing with these days. at first, i was so angry with all 5 people and i really didn't like how God was challenging me so much when i'm suppose to be studying. but in retrospect, i think it's good for me because i do need to learn how to be patient and understanding. when i was younger, i was so quick-tempered and i got angry so easily and all the time. but after receiving Christ, my hot temper had greatly died down... but, there's still so much more that i need to work on.

My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. -- James 1:19-20

And we urge you, brothers, warn those who are idle, encourage the timid, help the weak, be patient with everyone. -- 1 Thessalonians 5:14

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