i really thought i could do this.
but now i'm not so sure.
every other day, sometimes everyday, there seems to be "something in my eye."
every other day, sometimes everyday, there seems to be "something in my eye."
and i thought it would get better,
i thought i'd be okay by now.
but it's only getting worse.
i really don't know what to do.
and so i think of
sleeping forever
and wonder what it would be like
if i could just end it all.
and i know that's foolish and selfish of me
but i've reached the point where
i'm questioning
if anything matters at all.
i think this is what you call
the lowest of the lows.
i need to get out
before i really do
something stupid.
