a breath of fresh air

i'm finally at peace :) it feels soooo good. i've learned how to forgive and to love a person. that's HUGE! have you ever had to forgive someone who has wronged you? and not only forgive them, but genuinely love them and still care for them?

the bible teaches us to love and to forgive. it's so easy to hear this and nod in agreement. but actually applying this concept to a real-life situation?! oh my gosh. it's not as easy as you think. the journey is so painful and awfully discouraging. but when it finally comes to the end, it feels amazinggg. it's like this:

let's say you're trapped in a very tiny closet and you're running out of air. you're screaming for help but no one can hear you. you're panicking and fearing the worst, sweating and trembling in angst. but after what seems like hours, your hero saves you from the closet and you breathe in a new fresh of air. that first new breath of fresh air feels like heaven, doesn't it? you feel alive and rejuvenated.

that's what i'm feeling right now :) throughout my journey, i had a lot of emo moments and i endured a lot of pain. i knew that i wanted to be rid of it and the only way i could possibly do that was to seek God and ask Him for peace. but God wasn't going to just give me peace. He wanted me to earn that peace, and the only way to do that was to forgive and love this kid.

after so many months of feeling suffocated, i'm now able to breathe in my new breath of fresh air. thank You, Jesus.