on my mind

i came back from a good bible study tonight. it made me think a lot. but now i have all these thoughts floating in my head that i'm just going to write them all out:

-- Christ's blood has given us eternal redemption. He has cleansed our conscience and has forgiven our sins. we've been purified inside and out! purified! but knowing all of this, i still feel so guilty and so filthy and so dirty. will i ever feel the cleansing of His blood?

-- as humans, we focus so much on how we appear before man. we focus so much on the external part first, and then we work on the internal part. but in order for the outside to be clean, we ought to be clean on the inside. to God, it is the internal changing of the heart that He wants to see. my heart has yet to change enough to be pleasing to His eyes. i have so much to work on.

-- my jundo (what is this in english? pastor-to-be?) is a good guy. although he's very sarcastic and often times, i have no idea how to approach his humor, he's still a good guy. he never fails to ask how i'm doing, he never fails to ask for my prayer requests... our young adult group is very blessed to have him. i hope he never reads this, haha.

-- a christian friendship should be glorifying to God. it should be edifying to both people as they support one another, and it should build each other up in Him. so, what happens if a christian friendship is not like this at all? should the 2 people break off the friendship and go their separate ways?

-- lost.