someone hurt me a lot. but how can just one single person have such a crazy impact on me? the only person who should leave a mark on me is JESUS. freakin' a. this one human being, who is worth NOTHING at all compared to my Savior, has gravely caused me so much heartache. it's ridiculous! I'M ridiculous. I'M an idiot. I'M so stupid.
i've been so angry with a fellow child of God. i've said some hateful things about this kid and i didn't care. but is it right of me to say such things about someone who loves God so much? who God loves so much? if God can love this kid, if Jesus can die for this kid, then how in the world can i hate someone that my Holy Father loves??
so what if someone hurt me. i'm sure i hurt people all the time, too. for sure, i know i disappoint my parents over and over and over again.... and yet they forgive me when i don't deserve their forgiveness at all.
so to this kid who i've been struggling with for the past x months.... i forgive you. no longer will i be hating you but i'll be showing you love. no longer will i let you bring me pain but i'm going to find peace in you. i'm going to be a really, really good sister to you. hahaha, it's funny to imagine your facial expression when i go up to you and enthusiastically say, "hii!!!!" hehehe, you're going to be so surprised. you might not even know what to think of it. you may even be scared of it. hahaha~
love.
love.
love.
the most powerful emotion. the most difficult thing to do. LOVE.
Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates his brother is still in the darkness. Whoever loves his brother lives in the light, and there is nothing in him to make him stumble. -- 1 John 2:9-10
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